So when I acquire N hopefully by end of month I have no option but to take it at night when my elderly parents are in bed as I'm bed ridden unable to do this alone.
I read you can be discovered within 24hrs in a coma I mean what are the chances as at most I'll have 12hrs before mum comes to find me in the morning
This is my option left I feel so bad as was never suicidal until 9 months ago when something went seriously wrong with my physical health. Been existing only & last 4 months with my parents who cannot cope with my demise. Neither can I, I've always had some problems but never anything i thought I couldn't handle But now I have to get over not wanting to die but being unable to live like this with severe nerve damage to all my muscles & nerves & electrical bolts throughout head & limbs.
Life simply cannot go on yet I'm now worried about being found assuming I get the liquid down at all.
The days are getting harder, I'm shouting at my parents a lot. I don't mean to I'm just so sore & tired all the time & upsetting them makes my anxiety worse. I realise I've never felt good enough & now I can't even hold it together long enough until I acquire N. They both know I want to die it must be hard for them to comprehend but they say they accept it. Yet every day gets harder as benzos/opiates no longer aid my sleep or pain. It's a living hell now I so wish I had my own place to die on my own terms.
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I read you can be discovered within 24hrs in a coma I mean what are the chances as at most I'll have 12hrs before mum comes to find me in the morning
This is my option left I feel so bad as was never suicidal until 9 months ago when something went seriously wrong with my physical health. Been existing only & last 4 months with my parents who cannot cope with my demise. Neither can I, I've always had some problems but never anything i thought I couldn't handle But now I have to get over not wanting to die but being unable to live like this with severe nerve damage to all my muscles & nerves & electrical bolts throughout head & limbs.
Life simply cannot go on yet I'm now worried about being found assuming I get the liquid down at all.
The days are getting harder, I'm shouting at my parents a lot. I don't mean to I'm just so sore & tired all the time & upsetting them makes my anxiety worse. I realise I've never felt good enough & now I can't even hold it together long enough until I acquire N. They both know I want to die it must be hard for them to comprehend but they say they accept it. Yet every day gets harder as benzos/opiates no longer aid my sleep or pain. It's a living hell now I so wish I had my own place to die on my own terms.
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