Discussion N from D question for everybody

[deadmanwalking1990]

Why is there a bunch of people here who claim they got N from D in 2020 2021,some even before that,and then i see they have been online today,its really not fuckin fair,if i got N right now,there wouldnt be online status from me ever again

 

[intr0verse]

I find this to be very rude. We just don't know their personal circumstances and it's only their business what (or when) they do with their N. I understand your frustration but the current situation it's not those people's fault.

 

[LastNite]

N was actually on DH for a couple months but the guy selling it got banned for ignoring the staff. It looked a bit brown kind of clumpy powder. Sold it for $1K I forgot how many grams. Seemed really shady thats probably the reason why he got banned. N has a lot of scams going around it. It's also more expensive and harder to find.

 

[deadmanwalking1990]

It literally is those people's fault,because alot of them posted here:i got it i got and because of it D got arrested,and these people didnt even use their N

 

[Forveleth]

Because killing yourself us a very personal choice. Some people will have their method prepared but may not be ready to carry though with it and there ia NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT.

 

[deadmanwalking1990]

Because killing yourself Some people will have their method prepared but may not be ready to carry though with it and there ia NOTHING WRONG WITH T

Because killing yourself us a very personal choice. Some people will have their method prepared but may not be ready to carry though with it and there ia NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT.

I know its nothing wrong with that,but i think its wrong if you got it and dont plan to use it for now,but go on here telling people you got it

 

[Valky]

I know its nothing wrong with that,but i think its wrong if you got it and dont plan to use it for now,but go on here telling people you got it

I get what you mean, I assume you mean that it feels like they are bragging?
Most cases I've read so far are more for information disclosure.

 

[deadmanwalking1990]

I get what you mean, I assume you mean that it feels like they are bragging?
Most cases I've read so far are more for information disclosure.

Yes bragging and doxxing the source and for what,why do you have to fuckin post it,use PM

 

[Valky]

Yes bragging and doxxing the source and for what,why do you have to fuckin post it,use PM

Posting sources is against the rules of the forum. Report those :)

 

[deadmanwalking1990]

Posting sources is against the rules of the forum. Report those :)

I dont wanna report nobody,i just think its stupid to post that you got it,because of people like them we cant have N ,and they got it tucked away and dont give a fuck bout people like me,who would actually fuckin use it

 

[Valky]

I dont wanna report nobody,i just think its stupid to post that you got it,because of people like them we cant have N ,and they got it tucked away and dont give a fuck bout people like me,who would actually fuckin use it

Don't get consumed by jealousy, it is not worth it.
N is simply no longer available and I don't think it will do you any good to be upset about it for much longer. Yes, it sucks, but we can't change it now.

 

[deadmanwalking1990]

Don't get consumed by jealousy, it is not worth it.
N is simply no longer available and I don't think it will do you any good to be upset about it for much longer. Yes, it sucks, but we can't change it now.

Yes you're right,but im just so exhausted,and mad,and sad and scared,i just cant take it...

 

[Valky]

Yes you're right,but im just so exhausted,and mad,and sad and scared,i just cant take it...

I understand, you are allowed to feel those things but don't let it consume you. <3
We will find other ways.

 

[intr0verse]

I dont wanna report nobody,i just think its stupid to post that you got it,because of people like them we cant have N ,and they got it tucked away and dont give a fuck bout people like me,who would actually fuckin use it

The source has not become public through this forum, it was posted in the PPeH. People posting about N back in the days when it was available made sense back then, re: reliabiity, shipping issues, all kind of scams using slightly modified email addresses, welfare checks, etc.

 

[deadmanwalking1990]

I understand, you are allowed to feel those things but don't let it consume you. <3
We wil

I understand, you are allowed to feel those things but don't let it consume you. <3
We will find other ways.

Thanks ,you sound like a good person.i dont know about other ways,i just wanna get a stroke or a heart attack and die,so i dont have to be a slave to my fucked up brain

The source has not become public through this forum, it was posted in the PPeH. People posting about N back in the days when it was available made sense back then, re: reliabiity, shipping issues, all kind of scams using slightly modified email addresses, welfare checks, etc.

Yea i know,im just fucked up bro,im sorry

 

[Valky]

Thanks ,you sound like a good person.i dont know about other ways,i just wanna get a stroke or a heart attack and die,so i dont have to be a slave to my fucked up brain

Yea i know,im just fucked up bro,im sorry

Thank you! You sound like a good person too! I really wish that life would be easier on you :/ there are many methods to find here, obviously I wish that they weren't necessary but I also hope that you will find what makes you happy, whatever that may be <3

 

[deadmanwalking1990]

Thank you! You sound like a good person too! I really wish that life would be easier on you :/ there are many methods to find here, obviously I wish that they weren't necessary but I also hope that you will find what makes you happy, whatever that may be <3

I miss my dad so so much ,im holdin a gun to my temple right now,but i cant fuckin do it,i dont want my family to find me like that

 

[KlMeNw]

I dont wanna report nobody,i just think its stupid to post that you got it,because of people like them we cant have N ,and they got it tucked away and dont give a fuck bout people like me,who would actually fuckin use it

You say you'll use it right away, but you may feel different once the poison is on the table in front of you, you never know for sure until you're in that situation. Also, for some its an enormous comfort just having N, and thats OK too.

 

[Valky]

I miss my dad so so much ,im holdin a gun to my temple right now,but i cant fuckin do it,i dont want my family to find me like that

And that is totally okay, death isn't running away :) what happened to your dad, if you don't mind me asking?

 

[deadmanwalking1990]

And that is totally okay, death isn't running away :) what happened to your dad, if you don't mind me asking?

He died in my arms two months ago,Parkinsons

You say you'll use it right away, but you may feel different once the poison is on the table in front of you, you never know for sure until you're in that situation. Also, for some its an enormous comfort just having N, and thats OK too.

I know,im just bitter at the world right now...

 

[Valky]

He died in my arms two months ago,Parkinsons

I know,im just bitter at the world right now...

I am so sorry to hear that. Did it bring you any kind of peace to be able to be there for him during his last moments?

 

[deadmanwalking1990]

I am so sorry to hear that. Did it bring you any kind of peace to be able to be there for him during his last moments?

I was his care taker,with him 24/7,honestly not really.Seeing him fall apart slowly in the last 2 years took a toll on me,i already had MDD before his illness,but when i lost him i lost all hope for myself

 

[Willy Wonka]

DH

what´s that?

 

[Liebestod]

what´s that?

A darknet market.

 

[Willy Wonka]

A darknet market.

ah thanks!

 

[LastNite]

what´s that?

DrugHub

 

[Willy Wonka]

DrugHub

thanks, never heard of that one before...

 

[Valky]

I was his care taker,with him 24/7,honestly not really.Seeing him fall apart slowly in the last 2 years took a toll on me,i already had MDD before his illness,but when i lost him i lost all hope for myself

Oh :( you dedicated yourself to care for him for such a long time, I can't imagine how it must have felt for you to see him fall apart.
Tho, I see it a lot in my field of work.
What usually helps people is to know that their loved ones are no longer in pain. Don't have to suffer any longer in the afterlife. I think that it is very important also for them to convert that dedication to themselves now. It is hard and "weird" to establish a new routine that is not focused on caring for someone else. Already having MDD while going through this sounds really heavy. I am so sorry that you had to deal with all of this.
I can understand that it took such a huge toll on you and still does but I am sure that your father could not have wished for someone else to do the job. I hope you are proud of yourself, your kindness and selflessness.