Venting My tumblr got taken down! :)

[XxEstenxX]

Welp. Someone reported a post I made talking about finally setting up my noose and the staff or whatever decided to go ahead and terminate my account. By the way, I never got a formal email, just an email stating, "Well, we might terminate your account if we want to." so how unprofessional ^.^

"Someone is seriously concerned for your safety" were they? If they were concerned about me then they wouldnt have taken down one of my only outlets I have to vent about my shitty life (besides these forums).

I hope that person who reported me is happy for targeting a mentally ill individual who wasn't harming or harassing anyone :) taking down my account did nothing, btw. I still will be actively suicidal without an account, so kudos to them ig lol.

Read this bullshit lmao.

I dont identify as human, so referring to myself as a "person" is uncomfortable, but lets play along for a bit.

No, you did take action against me as a "person". As a person going through tough times. As a person in pain. As a person who's had enough. Your censoring my pain and suffering. You are attacking me as an individual, because the content that I post was not meant to glorify or romanticize anything, I was literally just documenting my life and my actions.

"We'd love to have you stay on Tumblr" and then they terminate me anyway lmao.

I know I was risking my account getting banned, especially with the images I would upload, but I never wanted any attention towards them either, and Id only tag very personal and triggering post with well, trigger warnings. Im only slightly pissed because I also used that blog to upload fanfics (which thank goodness I also uploaded them onto ao3) and also to yap about my interests. Now I have that gone, but at least I have a friend that doesnt mind my yapping, so it isnt terribly bad (I refuse to use Twitter. Hell site y'all).

"Free Internet" they say. But the internet is anything but free nowadays...

 

[fishperson]

No one cares about us. Some people even use that anger to live out of spite.
I remember the first time i went to uni , and seeing hundred of students in the same classroom and i realized how insignificant it is. We are just ants, the only way to matter is to build a rss with someone.

 

[XxEstenxX]

No one cares about us. Some people even use that anger to live out of spite.
I remember the first time i went to uni , and seeing hundred of students in the same classroom and i realized how insignificant it is. We are just ants, the only way to matter is to build a rss with someone.

whats an rss? Relationship?

 

[fishperson]

whats an rss? Relationship?

Yeah building a bond with people. Preferably real life.
Online can work for a while but it will usually eventually become casual, also u dont wanna get attached to someone u cant hug.

 

[XxEstenxX]

Yeah building a bond with people. Preferably real life.
Online can work for a while but it will usually eventually become casual, also u dont wanna get attached to someone u cant hug.

I see, thanks for clarifying.

Also—very real advice. Hugs are awesome and way more healing than therapy will ever be. I hope that if this current online friendship I'm in works out, then maybe we can hug someday irl too...but the distance definitely sucks, lol

 

[eggsausagerice]

i recommend blogger or nekoweb as a free blog website instead, if you want to continue making a blog.

 

[XxEstenxX]

i recommend blogger or nekoweb as a free blog website instead, if you want to continue making a blog.

Thank you! I've been thinking about doing a website again lol maybe I should brush up on my html skills :p