my thread: my September ctb this time it's the right!!!

[Defenestration]

my thread: my September ctb this time it's the right one

I will do it at the beginning or mid of September, I don't know the date...since then I have done nothing at all and spend my time eating and sleeping... My loved ones don't understand why I don't do anything like that.

I feel a relief because I am no longer afraid of jumping (even if Ssi the end).

I'm trapped anyway because it's the only way out, the longer I wait, the more screwed up I'll be.

I feel a weight less on my shoulders.

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

Stil the same rooftop in mind?

 

[Rainbow Dash]

Wish you luck.

I remember me being afraid of jumping and that day...

Glad you overcame the fear and wish you luck and relief from the world and its suffering <3 <3

Godspeed

 

[Defenestration]

Stil the same rooftop in mind?

Yes the guard is in holidays in August
I train to let me down in my bed

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you all the best.

 

[Defenestration]

Je vous souhaite le meilleur.

Thanks....i hope......

 

[Defenestration]

It"s a long Time to wait

 

[Defenestration]

Fear of die Begin little

 

[Defenestration]

 

[Defenestration]

I'm going to see with a magnetizer if on the day of the ctb he can't fill me with energy....of course without telling him that I'm going to ctb

 

[Defenestration]

Nobody is interested by my future
death in september

 

[Defenestration]

Very exhausted today

 

[Defenestration]

ANHEDONIA

 

[possessed]

Wish you the best! If I have access to a high enough rooftop, I would do it ASAP even though I'm technically afraid of heights..............

 

[Defenestration]

Je vous souhaite le meilleur ! Si j'ai accès à un toit suffisamment haut, je le ferais dès que possible, même si techniquement, j'ai peur des hauteurs..............

Me too fear

 

[Defenestration]

I forced myself to go out today, it changed my mood but still just as tired and depressed

 

[Defenestration]

I'm not really afraid anymore, I just want to. it happens

 

[Evelyn Lane]

How high is the place, exactly?

 

[Defenestration]

À quelle hauteur se trouve exactement cet endroit ?

France 60 m
grass or hard

 

[Defenestration]

All time very exhausted....

 

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Insomnia

 

[possessed]

France 60 m
grass or hard

Is 60m really enough? Can't you find a higher place so the risk can be minimized even more?

 

[Defenestration]

60 m, est-ce vraiment suffisant ? Ne peut-on pas trouver un endroit plus élevé pour minimiser encore plus le risque ?

Not more hight

 

[Defenestration]

I ordered a book for my parents and my sister about living after the suicide of an oriche. I will leave it available after my CTB

 

[Sanctioned993924]

Good luck, hope you get what you want. I would try as well but I'm to scared

 

[Defenestration]

Bonne chance, j'espère que tu obtiendras ce que tu veux. J'essaierais aussi mais j'ai trop peur

Me too fear

 

[Defenestration]

EXTRÊMEMENT GUILTY about m'y family and my mom who has beginning of Alzheimer

 

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Am i a Monster?

 

[DanielDanDean]

You're not a monster bro, nobody should feel like a monster for wanting to control his life and when it ends

 

[Defenestration]

You're not a monster bro, nobody should feel like a monster for wanting to control his life and when it ends

But about my Mum.
Ok she live with my father but ...