I first became suicidal at 14. I decided jumping from the 12th floor would be a good idea. However, I just couldn't bring myself to do it due to SI. It was the start of my research on suicide methods.
Two years later, I stumbled upon the site lost all hope. Every time I visited that site I would feel a sense of relief. I learned about N, nitrogen and drop hanging, but unfortunately I had no access to them at that time. I didn't have the money to purchase N or nitrogen, and there was no support at my house for hanging.
Then I learned about the ancient suicide forum alt.suicide.holiday. I found a website with their archives, but there was no methods that interested me.
I also learned about the original sanctioned suicide subreddit, but by the time I learned about it the sub was already banned. Then one day I had the brilliant idea of googling sanctioned suicide hoping to find some records or archives about the sub. And that's how I found this forum. Here I learned about the SN method, which is my method of choice now. It's cheap, available, easy to prepare, relatively painless, and most important of all, does not cause permanent damage should I fail.
Two years later, I stumbled upon the site lost all hope. Every time I visited that site I would feel a sense of relief. I learned about N, nitrogen and drop hanging, but unfortunately I had no access to them at that time. I didn't have the money to purchase N or nitrogen, and there was no support at my house for hanging.
Then I learned about the ancient suicide forum alt.suicide.holiday. I found a website with their archives, but there was no methods that interested me.
I also learned about the original sanctioned suicide subreddit, but by the time I learned about it the sub was already banned. Then one day I had the brilliant idea of googling sanctioned suicide hoping to find some records or archives about the sub. And that's how I found this forum. Here I learned about the SN method, which is my method of choice now. It's cheap, available, easy to prepare, relatively painless, and most important of all, does not cause permanent damage should I fail.
