My starvation journey

[bluesk]

Since dying in a different way is so hard for me, I decided to stop eating and drinking. I'm already not very interested in those activities so it won't be that hard. I know it's not very reliable but it won't hurt to try. In the worst case I'll damage myself and will have a higher chance of dying on my own.

 

[scary]

God bless you and good luck blue. VSED is extremely difficult but I believe you can do it. I tried to do it myself when I got desperate and I personally wasn't able to make it far, I'm very much tempted to try again but I hate the feeling of dehydration the most (though I've gone days without food and didn't mind the feeling)

 

[bluesk]

So it starts. Unfortunately yesterday I drank some black coffee because I didn't sleep well, so not eating counts from yesterday and not drinking from today. Nothing interesting happened in a day of not eating, my bowels make funny noises and my right side kinda hurts (I'm assuming it's the liver), but that's not new. I'll write about today before going to sleep.

God bless you and good luck blue. VSED is extremely difficult but I believe you can do it. I tried to do it myself when I got desperate and I personally wasn't able to make it far, I'm very much tempted to try again but I hate the feeling of dehydration the most (though I've gone days without food and didn't mind the feeling)

Yeah, I'm worried dehydrating may be unpleasant, especially bad breath... I hope that if I'll have to give up and drink, starving will be enough to damage my already unwell body

 

[tired93]

So it starts. Unfortunately yesterday I drank some black coffee because I didn't sleep well, so not eating counts from yesterday and not drinking from today. Nothing interesting happened in a day of not eating, my bowels make funny noises and my right side kinda hurts (I'm assuming it's the liver), but that's not new. I'll write about today before going to sleep.

Yeah, I'm worried dehydrating may be unpleasant, especially bad breath... I hope that if I'll have to give up and drink, starving will be enough to damage my already unwell body

starving is often enough, expecially if you have an unhealthy body. i wish you the best.

 

[bluesk]

Day 2: after writing the words above my heart started to hurt a little. Well, I didn't expect this to be so quick, I have to prepare myself for a random death faster. My survival instinct kinda kicked in there and I panicked, but I lost all my hope again after an online meeting with a psychiatrist I booked spontaneosly yesterday. I thought "I have nothing to lose and maybe she will prescribe me something that will miraculeosly give me a reason to live" but NO, she told me to go to a psychologist and I just wasted money. Fuck doctors. I'm not gonna waste more money to have a chat with some "professional" again. If they can't give me a cure for this curse I had my whole life I can just spend money on a very good quality rope. Anyway, back to starving. Like I said, bad breath is really distracting, brushing doesn't help for long. I also felt hungry sometimes but I keep telling myself that I HAVE to die because there really isn't anything else I can do now. If only euthanasia was accepted by this stupid society...

 

[BurningShipFractal]

just out of curiosity, what made you pick this method over other ones which would arguably be much less painful?

 

[chudcell]

Since dying in a different way is so hard for me, I decided to stop eating and drinking. I'm already not very interested in those activities so it won't be that hard. I know it's not very reliable but it won't hurt to try. In the worst case I'll damage myself and will have a higher chance of dying on my own.

Do you have an eating disorder? This will not be a viable method because of survival instinct. Longest I went without eating was 1 week, but I still drank water.

 

[bluesk]

just out of curiosity, what made you pick this method over other ones which would arguably be much less painful?

I don't know, I'm just too tired and scared to try something else. But I ordered a rope in case this fails. I also consider SN but I'll have to spend all my savings so I hope I'll succeed in a different way.

Oh, also, eating makes me feel very bad since I realized I'm a complete looser that isn't able to be independent. I don't want to eat food bought with my parents' money. I don't deserve it.

Do you have an eating disorder? This will not be a viable method because of survival instinct. Longest I went without eating was 1 week, but I still drank water.

My whole personality is a disorder at this point. I'm completely aware it may not work but I hope it shortens my life span at least.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Yeah, it's anything but quick.
If you've never read this before, it's the first non-method on the list.

Non-methods that should not be attempted

mod note: this has been added to the suicide resource compilation at the top. This has been made in response to the ever increasing amount of posts made about highly unlikely methods. Please read before posting about one of these methods or feel free to link if someone does post about them...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[bluesk]

Yeah, it's anything but quick.
If you've never read this before, it's the first non-method on the list.

Non-methods that should not be attempted

mod note: this has been added to the suicide resource compilation at the top. This has been made in response to the ever increasing amount of posts made about highly unlikely methods. Please read before posting about one of these methods or feel free to link if someone does post about them...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Don't worry, I know this and am aware of the consequences

 

[bluesk]

Day 3: My head and back kinda hurt. My bones are a little bit more visible than normally.