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Eclypser

Eclypser

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Dec 12, 2025
42
Will you be wearing diapers?
I am not too worried about my things after I CTB, I won't be deleting anything.
Of course I will be leaving no trace to SS.
I have wrote my letter already.
Good luck, I think with our protocols, we can't fail.
Thanks for sharing your choices, but for protection Nooo! Please, no diapers, it will never happen. 😆 It's too much. In Italy we call them "traversini" "pads" could be correspond. how can I explain it, maybe "bed mats." Lying on your right side, I think that's pretty decent.
 
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raybd

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Dec 4, 2019
189
Will you be wearing diapers?
I am not too worried about my things after I CTB, I won't be deleting anything.
Of course I will be leaving no trace to SS.
I have wrote my letter already.
Good luck, I think with our protocols, we can't fail.
You know, I have been on this site like 6 years - through 3 health and life episodes. The first two, the deterioration still left live bearable and not at "must go" point. The 3rd, this one, marks that I'm too far gone in health and everything. In all this while, rarely have I seen anyone this meticulous in their exit strategy. I reckon if you were this meticulous, you must have had some success at life. So, what is your reason for wanting to go? If you don't mind sharing?
Thanks for sharing your choices, but for protection Nooo! Please, no diapers, it will never happen. 😆 It's too much. In Italy we call them "traversini" "pads" could be correspond. how can I explain it, maybe "bed mats." Lying on your right side, I think that's pretty decent.
PPEH SN

From the PPEH Page....
 
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Eclypser

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Dec 12, 2025
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Good luck, I think with our protocols, we can't fail.
iWe can't fail! Good Luck! Always remembering "Fortis Fortuna adiuvat". This is the way
You know, I have been on this site like 6 years - through 3 health and life episodes. The first two, the deterioration still left live bearable and not at "must go" point. The 3rd, this one, marks that I'm too far gone in health and everything. In all this while, rarely have I seen anyone this meticulous in their exit strategy. I reckon if you were this meticulous, you must have had some success at life. So, what is your reason for wanting to go? If you don't mind sharing?

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From the PPEH Page....
Thanks to our mates here on SS, i think it's a right thing keep on mind this:

1. swallow the 30mg of meto uncrushed
2. crush 400mg of propranolol and mix it with some water (but dont drink it)
3. wait 40 minutes
4. make a different drink with 25 grams of sn and 50 ml of water
5. crush the benzos, mix with the propranolol drink
6. drink sn
7. drink benzos & propranolol
 
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Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
780
Try 3 tablets of Metoclopramide to see how your body reacts. It causes terrible side effects in some people. It didn't work for me at all; I'll be using Domperidone, also a dopamine blocker.
Good luck, may you find what you're looking for
 
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dalemar

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Nov 20, 2025
454
You know, I have been on this site like 6 years - through 3 health and life episodes. The first two, the deterioration still left live bearable and not at "must go" point. The 3rd, this one, marks that I'm too far gone in health and everything. In all this while, rarely have I seen anyone this meticulous in their exit strategy. I reckon if you were this meticulous, you must have had some success at life. So, what is your reason for wanting to go? If you don't mind sharing?
Yes sure.
Fit and healthy my entire life, amateur athlete. I even played recreational sports with professional soccer players that won the "Copa libertadores", so I can say without hesitation that my fitness level was quite high.
Never did drugs, alcohol, etc, not even medicines, never had a broken bone, surgery, etc, so pretty healthy, just a couple of minor sports injuries.
I didn't have the perfect life, in fact I was quite unlucky on a couple of times when I wanted to bring my life to a higher level, is like all my life I was always getting the short end of the stick, but, still nothing to complain too much.
Then I sustained a partial spinal cord injury that prevents me from doing what I used to do, and left me with some chronic pain as well, so I think I have done and achieve a good chunk of things in life already. One thing I knew since I was a child was that I never wanted to get too old either.
So I think time has come.
Thanks for sharing your choices, but for protection Nooo! Please, no diapers, it will never happen. 😆 It's too much. In Italy we call them "traversini" "pads" could be correspond. how can I explain it, maybe "bed mats." Lying on your right side, I think that's pretty decent.
Never heard about those.
Interesting.
As I said, very solid protocol, and very well thought plan.
You know that when you consider your time has come, chances of getting your will fulfilled are high.
 
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Eclypser

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Yes sure.
Fit and healthy my entire life, amateur athlete. I even played recreational sports with professional soccer players that won the "Copa libertadores", so I can say without hesitation that my fitness level was quite high.
Never did drugs, alcohol, etc, not even medicines, never had a broken bone, surgery, etc, so pretty healthy, just a couple of minor sports injuries.
I didn't have the perfect life, in fact I was quite unlucky on a couple of times when I wanted to bring my life to a higher level, is like all my life I was always getting the short end of the stick, but, still nothing to complain too much.
Then I sustained a partial spinal cord injury that prevents me from doing what I used to do, and left me with some chronic pain as well, so I think I have done and achieve a good chunk of things in life already. One thing I knew since I was a child was that I never wanted to get too old either.
So I think time has come.
Thanks for sharing. There are special people here on SS. For me, you are one of them
 
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Eclypser

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Dec 12, 2025
42
Yes sure.
Fit and healthy my entire life, amateur athlete. I even played recreational sports with professional soccer players that won the "Copa libertadores", so I can say without hesitation that my fitness level was quite high.
Never did drugs, alcohol, etc, not even medicines, never had a broken bone, surgery, etc, so pretty healthy, just a couple of minor sports injuries.
I didn't have the perfect life, in fact I was quite unlucky on a couple of times when I wanted to bring my life to a higher level, is like all my life I was always getting the short end of the stick, but, still nothing to complain too much.
Then I sustained a partial spinal cord injury that prevents me from doing what I used to do, and left me with some chronic pain as well, so I think I have done and achieve a good chunk of things in life already. One thing I knew since I was a child was that I never wanted to get too old either.
So I think time has come.

Never heard about those.
Interesting.
As I said, very solid protocol, and very well thought plan.
You know that when you consider your time has come, chances of getting your will fulfilled are high.
Clothing: Comfortable tracksuit with a zip in the front. If you don't need a full suit over it, a T-shirt will do. Ghost socks. Underpants: Briefs lined with tissues or paper towels. Please note, this is just my idea for a dignified outing; remember that for CTBing, only the right amount of SN is needed.
Never heard about those.
Interesting.
Clothing: Comfortable tracksuit with a zip in the front. If you don't need a full suit over it, a T-shirt will do. Ghost socks. Underpants: Briefs lined with tissues or paper towels. Please note, this is just my idea for a dignified outing; remember that for CTBing, only the right amount of SN is needed
 
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tomatopotato475

I will be squashed one of these days
Jan 20, 2026
13
Will 25g really do it justice ? Im researching this method as well but the thought of it not working and having long term brain damage scares me
 
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j1nxxb0yjj4ke

Member
Jun 26, 2023
78
SN tastes chemically and burns.
Idk if gum helps. I hope ur throat numbing spray does lol.
 
peacefulnights

peacefulnights

star gazer
Jan 15, 2026
19
Since I will have to wait till march/april to get some N (vet), I might have to ahead with the SN method, since I probably won't be able to wait that long.
So I am sharing my SN protocol.
2 cups of SN 25g sn/50ml water each.
8-12 hour food fasting.
2-3 hour of liquid fasting
1 hour before taking the SN I will take 600mg ibuprofen and 1 tramadol and 1x12mg bromazepam.
2-3 pills of propranolol.
45 minutes before the SN I will take 3x10mg meto.
Numbing spray.
Drink 1 cup of SN.
Drink a mix of 5x10mg diazepam+10x12mg bromazepam+1x4mg tizanidine, all crushed (i am surprised how little powder this has created) with very little water.
Chew a mint gum for like 30 seconds to reduce the salty taste of the sn in the mouth.
Lay back and wait for the best.

One thing that is key to prevent procrastination and panicking (something that i usually see in other's peoples threads), is that I already crushed the benzos, and I already separated the 50/2g of SN in 2 separate containers.
So I just need to execute the plan, not much thinking is needed, just plain execution, follow the steps.
I think it is solid.
I have already tested 1x10mg of meto, I felt a bit restless, but nothing crazy.
I will take 1 propranolol pill today, just to see how my body reacts to it.
I think testing "new" drugs in advance is also important, to prevent unwanted surprises on THE CTB day.
Suggestions are welcome.
PS. Please don't DM asking about the N/SN source.
kind of rhetorical but how did you get all these separate meds? It seems like a hassle just getting 1-2 let alone 5
 
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BradGuy123

Student
Jul 6, 2025
107
I'm not going to DM you to ask you your SN source. But in the instruction/plan threads I have read I have seen references to taking medicine that can only be obtained by prescription. I want to ask you about that. How did you manage to get bromazepam, propranolol, meto, and tizanidine? If I went to my doctor and asked for these it would be a huge red flag. My doctor would never give them to me. Is there some kind of underground market for these drugs? If so, how would would access this market and obtain them?
 
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dalemar

Arcanist
Nov 20, 2025
454
kind of rhetorical but how did you get all these separate meds? It seems like a hassle just getting 1-2 let alone 5
Except benzos, the rest is otc here
I'm not going to DM you to ask you your SN source. But in the instruction/plan threads I have read I have seen references to taking medicine that can only be obtained by prescription. I want to ask you about that. How did you manage to get bromazepam, propranolol, meto, and tizanidine? If I went to my doctor and asked for these it would be a huge red flag. My doctor would never give them to me. Is there some kind of underground market for these drugs? If so, how would would access this market and obtain them?

Except benzos, the rest is otc here
 
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dewdfish

Member
Nov 30, 2025
58
Sei que vocĂȘ Ă© brasileiro. Acabei de pedir meu SN. Os remĂ©dios que vocĂȘ conseguiu realmente dĂĄ pra comprar na farmĂĄcia sem receita? Medo de parecer suspeito ou algo do tipo.
 
Mere9090

Mere9090

Member
Jan 15, 2026
15
Experimente 3 comprimidos de Metoclopramida para ver como seu corpo reage. Em algumas pessoas, causa efeitos colaterais terríveis. Para mim, não funcionou; vou usar Domperidona, que também é um bloqueador de dopamina.
Boa sorte, que vocĂȘ encontre o que procura.
Como seu corpo reagiu? O que vocĂȘ sentiu?
 

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