NSFW My reasons for being here+anyone suicidal wanna chat?

[stink144]

I'm sorry mods I won't post my discord this time, but I can share it in private
My reasons:
1. My severe depression since age 12(I'm in my twenties now)
2. My psychosexual issues(I hate female position in sex and it causes me psychological terror)
3. I hate being a woman, well my dysphoria
4. My close friend leaving me (which I know isn't my fault but it hurts that she left bc I am attached to her and liked her, she was special to me and understood me even if she thinks she didn't, I felt understood by her)
5. My fixation on my celebrity crush
6. Nobody understanding me, everyone gaslighting me
7. My narcissist mother,
8. I can't move out and live alone

 

[Abyss Dweller]

Hey,
I feel you and I'm sorry things lead you here.

Regarding 2.:
One thing I do want to note is that: in your other post - some people might have not understood you but most people did.
There's nothing wrong you with you if you don't want to do those things. You also don't have to do those things and it doesn't mean nobody would want you. You are still loveable. My anecdotal experience or opinion on this is that most people wouldn't have any problem with you not wanting to do those things. And again if they have it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. It just means two people's preferences didn't align and you went your seperate ways.

Regarding 4.:
I know this can hurt a lot and I don't think there's some magic words I can type out. At some point for whatever reason I started being okay with the potential of people leaving and coming into my life.

Regarding 7.:
Again I know how you feel I also dealt a shitty hand with only my dad being present growing up and he had his ways of showing his dissatisfaction in his children.

Wish I could offer more but yeah.

 

[EmptyBottle]

#1, there is a chance Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation, when combined with other methods, may help with treatment resistant depression
#3, there may be DIY HRT which may help
#5 might fade with time
#6, ppl on this forum probably understand, or can at least listen and try to understand
#8 seems to also be years away for me too

 

[stink144]

Hey,
I feel you and I'm sorry things lead you here.

Regarding 2.:
One thing I do want to note is that: in your other post - some people might have not understood you but most people did.
There's nothing wrong you with you if you don't want to do those things. You also don't have to do those things and it doesn't mean nobody would want you. You are still loveable. My anecdotal experience or opinion on this is that most people wouldn't have any problem with you not wanting to do those things. And again if they have it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. It just means two people's preferences didn't align and you went your seperate ways.

Regarding 4.:
I know this can hurt a lot and I don't think there's some magic words I can type out. At some point for whatever reason I started being okay with the potential of people leaving and coming into my life.

Regarding 7.:
Again I know how you feel I also dealt a shitty hand with only my dad being present growing up and he had his ways of showing his dissatisfaction in his children.

Wish I could offer more but yeah.

Still the fact that people engage in that act is depressing to me as a woman.

 

[Abyss Dweller]

Still the fact that people engage in that act is depressing to me as a woman.

People engage in a lot of stuff. There's also the other direction where the woman takes a controlling position and she and her needs are the priority.
I subscribe to the idea that as long as all parties are consenting and enjoying themselves and no law is being broken then it is perfectly fine and may everyone find the right partner or partners or whatever for themselves.

I hope I'm not being too much of an idiot normie here with this but have you tried therapy? Maybe a sexologist?

I think something you may have to explore is why does the idea of what people may or may not do behind close doors affect me this much.
Again I know what you wrote but I'll write it down again: there's nothing wrong with you, you are loveable. There are ton of people whose preferences probably align with yours.

 

[stink144]

People engage in a lot of stuff. There's also the other direction where the woman takes a controlling position and she and her needs are the priority.
I subscribe to the idea that as long as all parties are consenting and enjoying themselves and no law is being broken then it is perfectly fine and may everyone find the right partner or partners or whatever for themselves.

I hope I'm not being too much of an idiot normie here with this but have you tried therapy? Maybe a sexologist?

I think something you may have to explore is why does the idea of what people may or may not do behind close doors affect me this much.
Again I know what you wrote but I'll write it down again: there's nothing wrong with you, you are loveable. There are ton of people whose preferences probably align with yours.

Bruh how are you gonna support face fucking and tell me to get therapy bc I don't like this misogynistic act

 

[EmptyBottle]

Bruh how are you gonna support face fucking and tell me to get therapy bc I don't like this misogynistic act

that indeed was not a helpful suggestion, people's preferences do not need changing unless they want to change them, and I'd also feel uncomfortable with 'ff' too (I'm 21m).

 

[stink144]

that indeed was not a helpful suggestion, people's preferences do not need changing unless they want to change them, and I'd also feel uncomfortable with 'ff' too (I'm 21m).

Bruh it's literally violent why do normies defend it how am I supposed as a WOMAN feel at the thought of an image of a woman FUCKED F U C K E D with dick in the mouth. FUCKED. And she's probably gagging and chocking. End of the topic bc mods are gonna lock again.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Bruh it's literally violent why do normies defend it how am I supposed as a WOMAN feel at the thought of an image of a woman FUCKED F U C K E D with dick in the mouth. FUCKED.

I agree, that is very gross.

 

[Abyss Dweller]

Okay. Well I tried.
I can just quote myelf: as long as all parties are consenting and enjoying themselves and no law is being broken then it is perfectly fine and may everyone find the right partner or partners or whatever for themselves. This is what I support.

If that is ff then it is ff. If it is faceriding where a woman lowers herself on the man's face then it is that. If it's under the blanket vanilia with no sprinkles then it is that.

that indeed was not a helpful suggestion, people's preferences do not need changing unless they want to change them, and I'd also feel uncomfortable with 'ff' too (I'm 21m).

The reason I suggested it becasue OP is fixated on what other people do behind close doors. I don't know how else I can write it down that you DON'T have to like it you DON'T have to do it. And there's NOTHING wrong with not liking it and not doing it. If this is not enough I fear whatever advice or insight or understanding I can offer is not enough and I personally can't say anything else other than try the professional therapy route.

 

[stink144]

Okay. Well I tried.
I can just quote myelf: as long as all parties are consenting and enjoying themselves and no law is being broken then it is perfectly fine and may everyone find the right partner or partners or whatever for themselves. This is what I support.

If that is ff then it is ff. If it is faceriding where a woman lowers herself on the man's face then it is that. If it's under the blanket vanilia with no sprinkles then it is that.

The reason I suggested it becasue OP is fixated on what other people do behind close doors. I don't know how else I can write it down that you DON'T have to like it you DON'T have to do it. And there's NOTHING wrong with not liking it and not doing it. If this is not enough I fear whatever advice or insight or understanding I can offer is not enough and I personally can't say anything else other than try the professional therapy route.

Can you stop defending face fucking?????? Can you stop please for gods sake??????? But can you stop??? How a woman can enjoy violence??? Professional therapy bc I'm triggered by violence against females??

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

Well for number 2 at least if we gather enough people like ourselves that think the same and we get going on a small "cruise-ade"............ok my lawyer has advised me that I can't say this online, this comment was made purely as a joke and does not condone violence against other people, I WOULD NEVER, ME? nah.

Now to be real, everytime I meet someone in real life who says something I don't like I just use the same rhetoric people use against me; "Just go to therapy and stop bothering me with your dumb views and sick ideas, you are ill in the head"; they usually do leave me alone, I was not born a woman, I'd give you my bodily strength if I could so you could do this from now on.

They'll try to eye you, realise they can't win a physical fight against you no matter what and go on their merry way while looking at you in a weird way. Hope they trip and fall and get glued to the ground, this is real life, physical strength triumphs all, full of dumb apes, I'm so sad for women who need to stay quiet because they might get assaulted, I wish there could be something that you could do. (No guns aren't the answer since they aren't legal everywhere).