Alright so I think I've found a plan. I'm a health care professional so I have access to all kinds of drugs and narcotics. Obviously narcotics are strictly supervised and missing medications would quickly be noticed. However that won't really matter since I'll be long gone 
I'm working evening shift today, and my plan is to sneak out as much as I can find of Midazolam (IV), since it's never really used anyways I think it would take some time to notice it's gone. I have IV's at home. Also I'll fill a syringe with Oxy (oral mixture 10 mg/ml). Since it's a bottle it's hard to keep track of how much is missing, so I'm thinking I'll just take a little with me to make sure I'm not experiencing any pain. Also been considering potassium chloride but I've heard that's extremely painful, and not really a guaranteed death anyways?
After work I'll take my dog for a good long walk. We'll have lots of fun and just enjoy our last moments together. He's the only reason I kept going for so long, but lately he's been showing signs of agression towards other people (resource guarding, protecting me), and I can't have him anymore. I failed him
I'll put him back in my car and leave the trunk open, write a note saying that «I'm gone, please call an ambulance to come get my body, don't go looking for me but please make sure my dog is taken care of etc but he's a bit skeptical towards strangers so please call XXX and ask them to help him out».
After putting him back in the car I'll walk as far as I can, it's an area with lots of forest and I'm 100% sure no one will be passing by at night, it's far from everything really. I know there's a river about 1 km from the road, and I'm thinking I'll just lay down there, take the Oxy and inject Midazolam. I'll pass out and hopefully freeze to death in a short time, due to the cold water. I'm 100% sure I won't be found within minimum 6 hours. Wouldn't that be enough? It's about 10-11 degrees celcius here at night, but I think the water and drugs would make me freeze to death quickly?
I know there will be people driving by tomorrow morning (there's a shooting range way up there), and hopefully they'll see my note and I'll be found, in peaceful sleep, and my dog taken care of quickly.
I've been training my dog to be a SAR-dog, so I know a thing or two about making it hard for a dog to find me. Not that I think it'll matter anyways, I think I'll be dead before anyone notices I'm gone. But I'll make sure I'm «messing up my tracks» just in case. I'll collect a bunch of leaves and stuff to hide my body too lol
I'm working evening shift today, and my plan is to sneak out as much as I can find of Midazolam (IV), since it's never really used anyways I think it would take some time to notice it's gone. I have IV's at home. Also I'll fill a syringe with Oxy (oral mixture 10 mg/ml). Since it's a bottle it's hard to keep track of how much is missing, so I'm thinking I'll just take a little with me to make sure I'm not experiencing any pain. Also been considering potassium chloride but I've heard that's extremely painful, and not really a guaranteed death anyways?
After work I'll take my dog for a good long walk. We'll have lots of fun and just enjoy our last moments together. He's the only reason I kept going for so long, but lately he's been showing signs of agression towards other people (resource guarding, protecting me), and I can't have him anymore. I failed him
I'll put him back in my car and leave the trunk open, write a note saying that «I'm gone, please call an ambulance to come get my body, don't go looking for me but please make sure my dog is taken care of etc but he's a bit skeptical towards strangers so please call XXX and ask them to help him out».
After putting him back in the car I'll walk as far as I can, it's an area with lots of forest and I'm 100% sure no one will be passing by at night, it's far from everything really. I know there's a river about 1 km from the road, and I'm thinking I'll just lay down there, take the Oxy and inject Midazolam. I'll pass out and hopefully freeze to death in a short time, due to the cold water. I'm 100% sure I won't be found within minimum 6 hours. Wouldn't that be enough? It's about 10-11 degrees celcius here at night, but I think the water and drugs would make me freeze to death quickly?
I know there will be people driving by tomorrow morning (there's a shooting range way up there), and hopefully they'll see my note and I'll be found, in peaceful sleep, and my dog taken care of quickly.
I've been training my dog to be a SAR-dog, so I know a thing or two about making it hard for a dog to find me. Not that I think it'll matter anyways, I think I'll be dead before anyone notices I'm gone. But I'll make sure I'm «messing up my tracks» just in case. I'll collect a bunch of leaves and stuff to hide my body too lol
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