SummerDreamer
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- Jun 1, 2020
- 40
Hi beautiful souls, I'm not sure yet at what point I will be exiting this world but I have a plan nonetheless for when the going gets too much. Would be lovely to get your opinions on my method
I live in the countryside with my parents, loads of trees and secluded places where I would be unlikely to be found for many hours. I have ordered a 12 mm static rope that I will tie to a sturdy branch. I will have a raised object of some sort on the ground I can easily kick away (stool, wooden box etc.) I will tie noose around neck, and drink some alcohol until I feel nice and tipsy. Then I will take 2.5 mg of xanax (never taken before) to kick my SI and feel sleepy which will hopefully give me courage to kick the stool away. I will tie hands behind back immediately after I've ingested the xanax.
Another option is to take more xanax (like 4mg maybe?) so I blackout in the noose, but from what I understand when you blackout you just dont remember things, but your body could still do anything. Which worries me because that means I could undo my plan to ctb.
What do you guys think, would you go for the first or second option? Like many of you I am scared of the pain that full suspension brings and will do anything to make the process quicker and less painful. Maybe I need to be taking some sleeping pills with option 2 (like promethazaine) to stop my body from doing stuff while I'm unconsious?
xx
I live in the countryside with my parents, loads of trees and secluded places where I would be unlikely to be found for many hours. I have ordered a 12 mm static rope that I will tie to a sturdy branch. I will have a raised object of some sort on the ground I can easily kick away (stool, wooden box etc.) I will tie noose around neck, and drink some alcohol until I feel nice and tipsy. Then I will take 2.5 mg of xanax (never taken before) to kick my SI and feel sleepy which will hopefully give me courage to kick the stool away. I will tie hands behind back immediately after I've ingested the xanax.
Another option is to take more xanax (like 4mg maybe?) so I blackout in the noose, but from what I understand when you blackout you just dont remember things, but your body could still do anything. Which worries me because that means I could undo my plan to ctb.
What do you guys think, would you go for the first or second option? Like many of you I am scared of the pain that full suspension brings and will do anything to make the process quicker and less painful. Maybe I need to be taking some sleeping pills with option 2 (like promethazaine) to stop my body from doing stuff while I'm unconsious?
xx
