My mind is decaying

[chocolatebar]

I never had much at life, but I was always fond of my reasonably good cognitive skills. I was good at reading, learning and comprehending complex topics. I was also a good writer and could articulate my words in a very fluidly way, but now, I feel like I'm losing even that, as I'm having difficulty even when reading simple phrases. My writing is erratic, full of typos, repetitive words and incongruities.

It was the only thing I had, and now, I don't have even that. I'm falling apart.

 

[WornOutLife]

I guess the thoughts of wanting to ctb constantly make us lose our minds little by little.
I just feel like you even though some people still say I'm "way too smart". (when I'm clearly not)

 

[Midgardsorm]

I'm sorry, friend. I'm going through the same, so I understand you a bit.

The feeling of losing the only thing that made you happy, what make you feel somewhat special is terrible.

I'm here if you need to chat a bit, you're from the same county, it would be nice to talk.

 

[slyna]

I feel the exact same way although a 2 year drug problematic relationship has ofc done some damage but primarily isolation does exactly this too you.
Isolation is killing you softly.

 

[Neowise]

It's the depression. It eats our minds and our abilities.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have never had particularly good cognitive skills, but mine are getting worse over time. As the years go by I am getting more tired of life and I cannot focus much. Living really can be tiring, I'm sorry you are going through this.

 

[chocolatebar]

I have never had particularly good cognitive skills, but mine are getting worse over time. As the years go by I am getting more tired of life and I cannot focus much. Living really can be tiring, I'm sorry you are going through this.

So sorry to hear that. Seeing ourselves decay is one of the worst things that can happen in life and that's why I don't intend to get old.

 

[russlinjimmies]

This is quite true. I used to also be a talented writer, as well as a "bright" person with a wide breadth of knowledge and educational interests. After decades if depression I can't even read a single chapter of a book without losing focus and forgetting much of what I've read. Forget about writing, too.

Physical Effects of Depression on the Brain

Depression is more than feeling down. There’s evidence It may physically change your brain. Here’s what you need to know.

www.webmd.com

 

[chocolatebar]

This is quite true. I used to also be a talented writer, as well as a "bright" person with a wide breadth of knowledge and educational interests. After decades if depression I can't even read a single chapter of a book without losing focus and forgetting much of what I've read. Forget about writing, too.

Physical Effects of Depression on the Brain

Depression is more than feeling down. There’s evidence It may physically change your brain. Here’s what you need to know.

www.webmd.com

Thank you for sharing the link. Looks like we are screwed by depression. I think it even creates a positive feedback, making us even worse, because we know how much we could do before and how much we will never be able to do again, worsening our condition.