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RKKS140

RKKS140

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Jul 18, 2026
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Good evening everyone,

After previously posting a thread with quite a few questions and a poorly prepared plan, I'm posting this because I think the time is drawing near.

I've done a huge amount of research into many different methods.

I absolutely want something painless.
I looked into carbon monoxide at first; I haven't completely ruled it out. I had a plan that seemed extremely lethal, but other methods caught my attention during my research.

So, I studied the "exit bag" method using nitrogen in detail.
The only downside—and this applies to carbon monoxide too—is that it requires a lot of organization, and there's a high risk my roommates would figure it out (of course, I wouldn't have done it at home, but I would have had to order a box to our address, and they aren't naive).

So, I considered potassium chloride; I can order it, and it's more discreet because the package is tiny compared to the supplies needed for nitrogen or carbon monoxide methods.

Then, while searching, I learned that the cyanide found in apricot kernels is extremely toxic.
I wanted to ask about this: if I were to swallow about twenty apricot kernels, would it achieve my goal?

If not, I'll plan on using the "nitrogen and exit bag" method
 
hughmun9

hughmun9

Student
Feb 22, 2023
132
I had similar worries about the nitrogen. But for me it came in a large cardboard box. I live with 5 other people and none of them know.

I hesitate to do the exit bag if I could get my hands on SN though. No way to mess up drinking salty water, but so much can go wrong with the bag.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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No.

If you're so concerned about inert gas + exit bag going wrong, why not just go with SN?
 
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RKKS140

RKKS140

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Jul 18, 2026
11
No.

If you're so concerned about inert gas + exit bag going wrong, why not just go with SN
No.

If you're so concerned about inert gas + exit bag going wrong why not just go with SN?

No.

If you're so concerned about inert gas + exit bag going wrong, why not just go with SN?
I don't think the inert gas and exit bag method will go wrong. I'm just a bit worried that the plan might be discovered because of an order for a nitrogen cylinder or other equipment.

The reason is that I live in France, and it's almost impossible to get hold of that stuff here.
 
RKKS140

RKKS140

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Jul 18, 2026
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I had similar worries about the nitrogen. But for me it came in a large cardboard box. I live with 5 other people and none of them know.

I hesitate to do the exit bag if I could get my hands on SN though. No way to mess up drinking salty water, but so much can go wrong with the bag.
can you explain brother about the risk??
with many reflexion i think this is the best option for me.
but i I would like to know your opinion about the risk.
 
dustoff

dustoff

Student
Apr 15, 2026
108
Then, while searching, I learned that the cyanide found in apricot kernels is extremely toxic.
I wanted to ask about this: if I were to swallow about twenty apricot kernels, would it achieve my goal?
the amount of cyanide in kernels is small. i read somewhere it's around 1mg per kernel. so you need to ingest 1,000 pits which somewhat equals to a gram of NaCN to be sure that it'll work otherwise you survive or death will be very long and painful. agony from small cyanide doses may last for several days. and the pits need to be crushed and mixed with water/saliva (hydralized) to release actual cyanides from the glycoside and the solution of crushed pits 'expires' in just several hours because HCN is volatile. technically you can buy emulsin (an enzyme that seperates sugary and hydrocyanic part of the amygdalin apart) or use parts of plants that contain it plus amygdalin, mix it in water and drink. but ive no clue whether they sell this stuff in pure form to people outside of labs.
 
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RKKS140

RKKS140

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Jul 18, 2026
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the amount of cyanide in kernels is small. i read somewhere it's around 1mg per kernel. so you need to ingest 1,000 pits which somewhat equals to a gram of NaCN to be sure that it'll work otherwise you survive or death will be very long and painful. agony from small cyanide doses may last for several days. and the pits need to be crushed and mixed with water/saliva (hydralized) to release actual cyanides from the glycoside and the solution of crushed pits 'expires' in just several hours because HCN is volatile. technically you can buy emulsin (an enzyme that seperates sugary and hydrocyanic part of the amygdalin apart) or use parts of plants that contain it plus amygdalin, mix it in water and drink. but ive no clue whether they sell this stuff in pure form to people outside of labs.
thank's my friend,
the amount of cyanide in kernels is small. i read somewhere it's around 1mg per kernel. so you need to ingest 1,000 pits which somewhat equals to a gram of NaCN to be sure that it'll work otherwise you survive or death will be very long and painful. agony from small cyanide doses may last for several days. and the pits need to be crushed and mixed with water/saliva (hydralized) to release actual cyanides from the glycoside and the solution of crushed pits 'expires' in just several hours because HCN is volatile. technically you can buy emulsin (an enzyme that seperates sugary and hydrocyanic part of the amygdalin apart) or use parts of plants that contain it plus amygdalin, mix it in water and drink. but ive no clue whether they sell this stuff in pure form to people outside of labs.
Thanks, mate, I suspected as much, but I wanted to be sure. You've confirmed what I thought. I'll definitely look into another method because, even if it's lethal, getting hold of cyanide isn't easy where I live. And I'm not convinced it would be painless.
 

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