BlueMist96
Member
- May 12, 2026
- 31
I just want to be alone in my head. Every second of every day I am being tormented by this stupid fucking voice. I swear it's sentient, and it hates me. It knows exactly what to say at exactly the right moment to fuck with me.
I could get "help" but what would they tell me to do? Let it talk, let it say whatever the fuck it wants. Sure, let me just allow it to ruin everything. Sounds great. I'm sure it will leave me alone after that, right? That's exactly what It fucking wants.
Being able to tell it to fuck off is the only thing that stops me from feeling like a sick, disgusting, evil person. It's the only thing I have left. I don't care if it would "fix" me. If I have to let it win, let it get it's way, I'd rather kill it and myself.
I'm going on vacation with my family soon. I've been waiting years to go back to the ocean, and it's the last thing keeping me here. After that, I have nothing left to live for. I know it's going to ruin that too.
I could get "help" but what would they tell me to do? Let it talk, let it say whatever the fuck it wants. Sure, let me just allow it to ruin everything. Sounds great. I'm sure it will leave me alone after that, right? That's exactly what It fucking wants.
Being able to tell it to fuck off is the only thing that stops me from feeling like a sick, disgusting, evil person. It's the only thing I have left. I don't care if it would "fix" me. If I have to let it win, let it get it's way, I'd rather kill it and myself.
I'm going on vacation with my family soon. I've been waiting years to go back to the ocean, and it's the last thing keeping me here. After that, I have nothing left to live for. I know it's going to ruin that too.