Venting My incredibly depressing Christmas

[nintendo64]

Woke up in the afternoon. Bought some SN as my gift to myself, decided to get some just in case. Friend cancelled on me, so I just went to the beach and sat near the water in the rain staring into the distance thinking of what my suicide note's gonna say. I was there until it got dark out and my hands and face went completely numb. Demolished a slice of cake in my car, I haven't eaten for a while so why not. I'm just too depressed to feel hungry anymore. I went home and tried out hanging until I almost blacked out a couple times again, used my closet support bar this time. It's a lot more difficult because the tie I'm currently using is really short, so I'm gonna get a longer one tomorrow. I cut myself for a while after that. Then I drank some whiskey, had a few ciggies. Best part of the day.

I truly hope y'all had a better Christmas than me.

 

[nendn]

not slept for awhile. Ignoring clocks. try to eat as little as possible. cigarette abuse with ctb intention. Had a walk to spot some quiet lake or wasting facility to have a final swim. Thinking of may attempt tommorow

 

[Al_stargate]

Damn sorry, holidays can be extremely depressing for a lot of people. Some people have ok helpful families but some of us are born into degenerate families that we can't even get rid of. Sorry you felt like shit on what should be a festive day. Hope you at least enjoyed cake, cigs, and whiskey.