My Final 72 Hours [Maybe]

[DeadInsideUnicorn]

Hey DeadInsideUnicorn, nice to meet you too! While I was clearing off my computer, I went through all my liked songs in chronological order. It was really nostalgic to see the songs and the dates associated with them. For potentially my last monthly rotation I compiled some old and new songs and put them into a playlist: What is your favorite music you want to listen to these days?

Thank you for sharing! You have great music taste. Some of your favorite songs are my favorite too. I love music but these days I feel so terrible that I don't wanna listen any. It reminds me of people I loved and they didn't care about me, times when I felt love or happy but it feels like a lie now. I'm too hurt and for the first time of my life music can't heal me as it used to do. But in better times I love to listen many artist and P!nk is my most favorite Her music helped me many times before.

 

[$yck]

Good Afternoon y'all,

That edible knocked me tf out lol. I'm finishing up my stuff to attempt tomorrow [packing my bag for the ward just in case, making sure my car is cleaned out, shit like that], I'll get back to the thread once I finish that stuff.

Thanks :]

 

[idiotmother]

Good Afternoon y'all,

That edible knocked me tf out lol. I'm finishing up my stuff to attempt tomorrow [packing my bag for the ward just in case, making sure my car is cleaned out, shit like that], I'll get back to the thread once I finish that stuff.

Thanks :]

You seem like such a friendly, joyous and polite person. Very warm and inviting..wishing you the best

 

[woodlandcreature]

Music!!! You have amazing taste in music, I love all genres as well, but I definitely need to check out more rock/alt rock/grunge. I really like Alice in Chains, and my favorite song by them is Heaven Beside You. Ichiko Aoba makes such beautiful music, it's very calming. I need to listen to more of her discography, but my current favorite song by her is Parfum d'étoiles. I wish I could go to more concerts, I went to my first concert in late May and it gave me a new appreciation for music and artists. The energy, The vocals, The crowd work, it's wonderful. Do you like Mannequin Pussy or Type O Negative? Idk exactly what sub genre they fall into, but they sound pretty good imo Also thank you in advance for putting me onto to some new music, that's always appreciated.

Food!!! Baking is fun as hell and a warm slice of apple pie sounds amazing right now holy shit

Instruments!!! If I could give you this old keyboard in my house, I would. I agree, hearing someone play piano is such a nice experience, especially in concert or an orchestral setting. Yeah, losing my dad was rough, it sucks but hey I might join him soon lol. From what I remember he was the most loving person I've ever had in my life to date. Drums/Drummers are so cool, I bet your uncle plays some cool shit. My mom used to play clarinet in highschool lol, I heard it takes a lot of breath work. Yeah, going to piano practice every Tuesday was the worst for 9-10 year old me. I love bass guitar in everything, but mainly funk. It really brings out the groove lmao. With both Clarinet and Bass, I think you'd be great at piano. I'm glad you've enjoyed it. it sucks that life is so shitty that we feel like we can't enjoy the great parts about it because the shitty parts are so overwhelming :/

Visual Art
I've always wanted to knit or crochet, to be able to make your own stuff is so cool. Studying art history sounds cool as fuck, excuse to hyper fixate or not, learning about Pre Hispanic Peru lace weaving sounds way cooler than doing equations for an hour lol. Stop motion films will always be special to me, especially when they show the behind the scenes. Thank you :] . An old friend of mine loves horror movies, he's studying film and said he wants to direct/make his own horror movie someday. Every good horror movie I've watched, is cause he made me watch it lmao

Sports
That's fair lol, people suck. Games, Practice and you attended school while doing all that? And dealing with a shitty coach? You stronger than me. It's great you had a close knit group of people that supported it each other tho, that sounds like the dream.

Thank you, and likewise! You were wonderful to learn about too, that brief art history lesson was so interesting it kinda makes me wanna research it now

Thank you again :]
[Also, my bad if my writings a lil off. The edible hit mid paragraph ]

I love Heaven Beside You!! Some more AIC favorites of mine are Rotten Apple, God Am, and Shame In You. I think my favorite Ichiko Aoba songs would be Parfum d'étoiles, Porcelain, Asleep Among Endives, bouquet, and meringue doll. Her music is very angelic! I'm sorry you couldn't go to more concerts :-( - I'm glad you've had an experience with them though! Small free/inexpensive shows can be so fun! Everyone really comes together to create an immersive and memorable experience. And yes, I listen to both of those bands!

it sucks that life is so shitty that we feel like we can't enjoy the great parts about it because the shitty parts are so overwhelming :/

Amen to that man -

Stop motion films will always be special to me, especially when they show the behind the scenes

I remember watching so much behind the scenes stuff about claymation in particular when I was little - I've always had an affinity for it as well.

- & you're so real for getting hit by that edible lol - I'll roll one up for ya!

 

[Pale_Rider]

I love you, and wish you peace in whatever you decide.

 

[Macedonian1987]

Wishing you best of luck. Maybe we will all meet again one day in a better place than this world. How nice would that be. All of us members of the Sasu forum who ctb in the past and the ones who will ctb in the future, to have one big party in a place where no physical or psychological torment exists.

 

[$yck]

Good evening everyone,

It's been a long day, I made some progress, thank you for all the kind words :]

Responding now then watching White Chicks

I also regret to inform all of you, that the edible has hit again.

That's great! I wish you the most peaceful and painless process

Thank you :] I wish you peace as well

 

[$yck]

I don't know much about dogs but german shepherds seem so beautiful and loyal, shepherd dogs in general might be my favourite type of dogs besides golden retrievers and labradors. Cats are cute indeed, people often think that they don't care but they do, they just show it differently. I don't have a cat of my own yet but as I'm typing this there is a neighbourhood street cat beside me which can maybe be considered mine since I feed her whenever I can and I let her sleep over on cold nights.

Digital editing sounds so cool and fun, I wish I knew how to do it. When it comes to knitting and crocheting I'm a beginner, so I mostly make swatches, although I did manage to knit a scarf for my mum once but I'm not pleased with how it looks like so I might try again. I am much better at knitting than crocheting. My next project besides a scarf will probably be a warm blanket for the cat.

Wow, that's lots of sports! I don't know much about lacrosse but it being four sports in one sounds very challenging and fun. I know very little about sports in general but my dad loves the football team Liverpool so I kind of started cheering for them as well. I love watching football while there is the world cup and european cup. Sometimes my dad swears a lot while watching sports and I am afraid that's a bad habit that I've picked up ftom him XD.

Honestly I could swim anywhere, but I generally prefer to do it in nature, especially at sea, because that allows me to see the beautiful sea life and collect seashells(I only collect dead seashells, taking ones that are still alive is cruel imo).

I hope that you get to experience the glorious flavour of those peanuts. In my country the brand that produces that snack is called Hrusty and the snack usually costs about one euro (close to one dollar I think). I've tried filet mignon with fries and various pizzas, and it's all so delicious, I'm sure that the rest of the meals are as well.

Whatever happens, I hope you find what you are looking for. I hope this made you feel better :)

My dogs are great, they're really smart too. Cats seem like such good companions, it's so nice that you're helping that cat and I know it'll love the blanket. I hope y'all are doing well [you and da cat],
It is so fun, especially when it all comes together how you see it in you're head. I gotta be honest tho, I just go in the editing software and just start clicking shit.
"Anyone can cook..." - Chef Auguste Gusteau, Ratatoullie

It was so fun when I played, it's really fast paced tho. I've heard a little bit about Liverpool, are they good? Do you have a favorite player? I understand the swearing lol, nothing wrong with wanting your team to win. A lot of people in this thread seem to like football/soccer, maybe I'll watch a game.

I think I've swim in the ocean once, but it was really beautiful. Watching the sun set after a good swim is always nice. Do you have a favorite seashell you've collected?

I'd love to try it, maybe I can find a recipe. It all tastes good but I really gotta expand my palate, there's more to life than fries.

Thank you, I hope things go well for you. Thanks agin :]

 

[claracatchingthebus]

have you ever tried making any music yourself?

how are you feeling? hopefully reconsidering or feeling okay?

 

[$yck]

I really hope you enjoy white chicks! It's from the Wayans brother's too as the scary movies. I don't know much comedies, but I think that you could watch too Hot Fuzz!! I have a crush with the protagonist, but even without that that really makes me laugt and have a good time. And there's a series called Derry Girls, is fun and nice, but if You don't have much time, don't worry about it.

And thank You for the playlist!! I like a Lot of musicians, from Lana del Rey at... Dunno, Radiohead. Progressive Rock, pop avant garde, metal, even flamenco. I'm weird as f*k, haha

Thank you for answer me, and sorry for the long time!

Gonna watch it after this, I forgot to put it on last night my bad. Hot Fuzz has Simon Pegg, he was in Shaun of the Dead right? I've heard good things about that movie. I'll add Hot Fuzz and Derry Girls to the watch list

No problem for everything!! You have a wide range of genres, it's great.

Thank you :]

You seem like such an interesting person with diverse tastes! I bet we'd get along in person! Hope you find peace.

Thank you! You seem like an amazing person, thank you :]

is that frank ocean on ur pfp he looks tough asl on that pic

Yessirskii

 

[woodlandcreature]

I also regret to inform all of you, that the edible has hit again.

aye sameeee

 

[$yck]

Thank you for sharing! You have great music taste. Some of your favorite songs are my favorite too. I love music but these days I feel so terrible that I don't wanna listen any. It reminds me of people I loved and they didn't care about me, times when I felt love or happy but it feels like a lie now. I'm too hurt and for the first time of my life music can't heal me as it used to do. But in better times I love to listen many artist and P!nk is my most favorite Her music helped me many times before.

Thank you! I'm sorry you feel terrible, I hope you find peace. I hope you're able to heal one day and listen to P!nk again. Thank you :]

You seem like such a friendly, joyous and polite person. Very warm and inviting..wishing you the best

Thank you, I really appreciate it. I wish you the best as well :]

 

[Jan1193]

Gonna watch it after this, I forgot to put it on last night my bad. Hot Fuzz has Simon Pegg, he was in Shaun of the Dead right? I've heard good things about that movie. I'll add Hot Fuzz and Derry Girls to the watch list

No problem for everything!! You have a wide range of genres, it's great.

Thank you :]

Thank you! You seem like an amazing person, thank you :]

Yessirskii

Yes! He was in Shaun of the death and another one, the las of Conetto's trilogy, but my favorite one is hot Fuzz. I hope you enjoy it. When I was in a terrible season after my mother's passed away, I felt even happy meanwhile I saw all that recomendations, so I post it you with all my heart. So many hugs for you

 

[$yck]

I love Heaven Beside You!! Some more AIC favorites of mine are Rotten Apple, God Am, and Shame In You. I think my favorite Ichiko Aoba songs would be Parfum d'étoiles, Porcelain, Asleep Among Endives, bouquet, and meringue doll. Her music is very angelic! I'm sorry you couldn't go to more concerts :-( - I'm glad you've had an experience with them though! Small free/inexpensive shows can be so fun! Everyone really comes together to create an immersive and memorable experience. And yes, I listen to both of those bands!

Amen to that man -


I remember watching so much behind the scenes stuff about claymation in particular when I was little - I've always had an affinity for it as well.

- & you're so real for getting hit by that edible lol - I'll roll one up for ya!

Their self-titled is such a well rounded album, glad it was my introduction to grunge after Nirvana. I'm listening to meringue doll right now, the violin is so elegant. There's a couple concerts happening in the next couple of weeks, but I'm happy with the experience I got. At least it's something. People in the psych ward recommended Mannequin Pussy, and I have a Life Is Killing Me Deluxe CD. My favorite songs are Meatslave One and IYDKIMHTKY (Gimme That).

For me it was Lego stop motion. Claymation is so fun to watch too.

Thank you, :]

I love you, and wish you peace in whatever you decide.

Thank you, I wish you peace as well :]

Wishing you best of luck. Maybe we will all meet again one day in a better place than this world. How nice would that be. All of us members of the Sasu forum who ctb in the past and the ones who will ctb in the future, to have one big party in a place where no physical or psychological torment exists.

Thank you, in another universe then. I'll see you there :]

 

[spero_meliora]

you seem like such a lovely person, really hope you find your peace in whatever you decide.

 

[$yck]

have you ever tried making any music yourself?

how are you feeling? hopefully reconsidering or feeling okay?

I used to try, my keyboard had a record feature where you could tape like 5 layers of sounds. I used to make shitty beats with it or mess around with the beats that it made. A Casio CT-380 and another one I forgot about.

I'm feeling pretty good actually. Maybe it's the edible, maybe it's the end. Who knows

How're you feeling? I hope you're ok

Thank you :]

aye sameeee

Yes! He was in Shaun of the death and another one, the las of Conetto's trilogy, but my favorite one is hot Fuzz. I hope you enjoy it. When I was in a terrible season after my mother's passed away, I felt even happy meanwhile I saw all that recomendations, so I post it you with all my heart. So many hugs for you

Nice, I'll have to watch that 2nd one. I'm sorry to hear about your mother. Thank you so much :]

you seem like such a lovely person, really hope you find your peace in whatever you decide.

Thank you, I hope you find peace as well :]

 

[thebayleaf]

hi cliff!
you seem like a really fun person. hope everything goes perfectly and you find the peace you're looking for :)

 

[$yck]

hi cliff!
you seem like a really fun person. hope everything goes perfectly and you find the peace you're looking for :)

Hi thebayleaf!
Thank you, you seem great yourself. I hope everything goes well for you too :]

 

[madwoman]

Hi madwoman - Thank you for the love, I really appreciate it :]

My last meal is going to consist of:

• Filet Mignon with a side of fries
• A small deep dish pizza
• Texas Roadhouse Rolls
• Some Cinnabons
• An Arizona Chillzicle
• Towne Club
• Airheads Sourfuls

Some of my favorite foods and drinks

I hope you find peace as well, no matter what. Thanks again :]

All of that sounds so good. I love Texas Roadhouse rolls with the cinnamon butter so good!!! Have been wanting a cinnamon roll too! For a bit now I've been eating last foods I want too. I've always said my last meal will be a cheeseburger, fries and chocolate milkshake but will treat that for myself beforehand but not right before bc I don't want my stomach to hurt lol. Hope you get to enjoy some good food and thank you

 

[$yck]

All of that sounds so good. I love Texas Roadhouse rolls with the cinnamon butter so good!!! Have been wanting a cinnamon roll too! For a bit now I've been eating last foods I want too. I've always said my last meal will be a cheeseburger, fries and chocolate milkshake but will treat that for myself beforehand but not right before bc I don't want my stomach to hurt lol. Hope you get to enjoy some good food and thank you

Yeah, a cheeseburger and fries with a chocolate milkshake sounds classic. I'm gonna try to eat my meal earlier in the afternoon, so I don't get the shits lmao. Thank you, I hope everything is well for you too! :]

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Hi FadingSnowFlake, nice to meet you too.

Thank you :] At the moment, I feel weird. Not happy, but not sad either. Seeing as I've planned in the event of life, death, and brain damage, everything feels like it's happening around me, not to me. I'm confident that no matter what happens to me, this is something new. I feel like I may die both literally and figuratively, in every instance.
How are you feelings at the moment?

In terms of anything special, I'm going to visit my Dad's grave today, tomorrow, and Sunday. Talk to him, even if he only responds in the wind. Let him know his son is coming home.
Other than that I'll probably get high as fuck and stare at a wall or sumn lol.

I wish you the best as well, no matter what. I'm sending a hug your way too

Thanks again :]

Hey Clifford, thanks for your reply.

I'm high now, so it's slow motion typing Think I can understand how it feels for things to "happen around you". At the moment, I feel a bit lost in what seems unreality, and the feeling intensifies when I'm high. How do you feel when high?

It's very special that you're visiting your dad's grave, and so sad that you lost him so soon. I lost mine when I was 13, but we were not close. I hope you have good memories of him and I hope you meet him in the next world, amongst the stars, or wherever it is we go after here ️

 

[madwoman]

Yeah, a cheeseburger and fries with a chocolate milkshake sounds classic. I'm gonna try to eat my meal earlier in the afternoon, so I don't get the shits lmao. Thank you, I hope everything is well for you too! :]

that made me laugh yeah I don't want that either.

 

[woodlandcreature]

Keeping you in my thoughts today.

 

[$yck]

Good afternoon everyone,

Today is the day. I'm currently eating, and listening to some music. I will respond to the last few comments, and make my final statement later. Thank you again for all the kind words and wishes. I wish all of you peace no matter what. :]

Hey Clifford, thanks for your reply.

I'm high now, so it's slow motion typing Think I can understand how it feels for things to "happen around you". At the moment, I feel a bit lost in what seems unreality, and the feeling intensifies when I'm high. How do you feel when high?

It's very special that you're visiting your dad's grave, and so sad that you lost him so soon. I lost mine when I was 13, but we were not close. I hope you have good memories of him and I hope you meet him in the next world, amongst the stars, or wherever it is we go after here ️

Hey FadingSnowFake [sorry I got it wrong in my first reply], Thank you :]

I understand the slow motion typing, shits crazy. When I'm high, I feel content, maybe a little fuzzy but content none the less. I often do things and forget how or when I did them, sometimes I feel like I'm teleporting lol. I'm definitely in a different place when I'm high, but that's what I like about it.

Thank you, I appreciate it. I'm sorry that you lost your dad, I hope you're ok. Thanks again. :]

Keeping you in my thoughts today.

Thank you.

 

[ICantFixThis]

Hey Clifford, I really hope you to find peace. (also that last meal is epic)

 

[Firefly.Forest]

Clifford, Sorry I missed this post earlier and the opportunity to interact with you.

There is a good deal of kindness, love and humor coming from your posts - it has been a pleasure to read and learn about you.
I regret that we did not cross paths earlier. I also have admiration for the level of preparation that you have used in this process.

I wish you peace and ease in your journey. You will be in my thoughts and Hugs to you

 

[$yck]

Thank you all. I hope you all find peace and if I don't see you tomorrow, Good Morning, Good Evening and Good Night. :]

 

[woodlandcreature]

Thank you all. I hope you all find peace and if I don't see you tomorrow, Good Morning, Good Evening and Good Night. :]

It was lovely speaking with you <3

 

[R. A.]

I've been tracking your good energy around here. Yours to me are the more heartbreaking cases; the humanity much more evident. Every loss that didn't need to be is one (assuming circumstances are forcing your hand; never saw your rationale), but it's not always so real in a place like this.

Hope your time here has been some comfort.

 

[stardewwindceres]

I hope whatever happens/happened, you suffered as little as possible and are at peace