Venting My father is pressuring me to work

[Claymore7274]

I just had a discussion with my dad and finally stood up to him, he has been passive/agressive toward me, saying things that hurt way more than punches, he says he's disappointed about me, although i know i don't work, i help at home, workout, take care of myself.

I don't even do drugs but he still sees me as the lowest, worst son he's ever had, ever since i'm 15 he's been like this, it's not like he gives me money or anything, all i want from him is affection and to talk, but i can't have that as well, all he does is belittle me, talking to me like i'm a kid.

I want to enjoy what little time i have left before i hang myself and make sure i'm dead, i still have a lot of things to do. And it sucks he can't understand that

Last year i attempted and now that i've barely recovered from a brain concussion from said attempt he still wont give me a damn break, i'm sick of it

 

[fallen.dove]

hi claymore, i feel u. i am in simillar situation but the thing is that my mother is not accepting the fact that i cant find a job(its so hard in my city..either u need 20 years of experience while youre 20 or they didnt even check your cv/resume *however u call it in your country) since my dad passed away three years ago i dont get the affection i need because she have always been a narcissist and abusive. even if i try to talk to her it ends up with screaming etc. and almost every conversation is about me not having a job (because everyone has one but not me ofc…) it hurts me so bad…if u want to talk to someone, feel free to dm me. i understand what youre going thru

 

[bluemoirai]

I'm already 23 and I don't have a job either, I don't know who I want to be (and I never did).
Sometimes it seems to me that I can prove something only by suicide, because my family never wanted to understand what I say.
Hugs.