sweetbraid
Member
- Apr 15, 2018
- 63
I should have died as a child, it's a scientific anomaly that I lived past age five, the fact that I had any actual human-like function as well is ridiculously odd. I was beaten all the time until I was a preteen, and then I was hurt in other ways. I was rescued from killing myself a few years ago and to me it seems that all this time my death, my premature death, has just been being naively avoided, put off, and now as I understand the scope - or lack thereof - of my options in this life, I can't help but believe that my death is inevitable for the next few months. It's been put off my whole life, the time has come. God, that sounds so melodramatic - 'the time has come'. But I truly think that, that death has just been lurking around the corner for so long, I can't avoid it any longer. I just hope I don't survive when I take the plunge.
