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aldens

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Aug 17, 2026
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(I am diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, and likely have attained other disorders due to my decade of substance and alcohol use, so please excuse my erratic and arbitrary language)

I joined this forum last week because I am going to departure in a couple days. I have no idea what the acronyms of this forum mean, "CBT" "SI", I do not know anything about this forum. All I know is 9/4/2026 is my final day. I have already bought everything and written everything need be. I understand that this forum is meant for people who are going to commit suicide, and for those who spend years being suicidal and need a community to relate to. Unfortunately, I am actually dying, so this will be my last post. Well no, right before I die I will make one final post of my manifesto. I am so happy that I joined this community! I love all of you, even though I've only been here for a week. I'm so happy I get to post this. Please continue living. I've already spent the last of my money, purchased all my supplies, and quit my job. This is the end for me, but I hope you all make a life for yourselves and overcome everything. Thank you for allowing me to join this forum. My last post will likely be dramatic and extremist, so I understand if the moderators have to delete it. Before I go I want to say I love all of you! Never let the heinousness of humanity to prevent you from living. You can overcome anything. The reason I died is due to brain damage from a decade of substance and alcohol use. I've abused over 15 substances in 10 years due to severe depression. I have been forced into the psych ward. I love you guys okay? I always will. I hope this post makes sense.
 
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3rdworldsadness

Can you ever stop the suffering?
Dec 22, 2024
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Happy departure!!! I hope you can have the ultimate peace and the freedom.
 
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system1234

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Aug 28, 2026
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What are your symptoms ? I'm also completely fucked from RC drugs.
 
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darksoul999

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Aug 23, 2026
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Love you to bro! I hope we can have a beer on the other side if there is one :)

Ill be getting out of here 9-19-26 if everything flows right.
 
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darksouls

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thank you for your kind words, I hope you find relief from suffering đź«‚:heart:
 

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