My birthday is in 2 days and I am tempted

[Snake of Eden]

I am really tempted to suicide this Friday as it is my birthday. I will have SN tomorrow which I hoped to receive just in time and it did. I dont have an antiemetic yet and I am thinking if I take the smallest effective amount possible then I shouldnt really worry about throwing up. I may not end up doing it as I might go the nembutal route and order some since it is more peaceful. Do you have suggestions onto what I can do to psyche myself up to do it? Maybe get a hotel room for a day or two and do it there?

 

[Foreversad]

I am really tempted to suicide this Friday as it is my birthday. I will have SN tomorrow which I hoped to receive just in time and it did. I dont have an antiemetic yet and I am thinking if I take the smallest effective amount possible then I shouldnt really worry about throwing up. I may not end up doing it as I might go the nembutal route and order some since it is more peaceful. Do you have suggestions onto what I can do to psyche myself up to do it? Maybe get a hotel room for a day or two and do it there?

Please if no severe reason to hurry dont hurry it up .ive also considered the sn but since im not digestive fine still i cant go through.im thinking that sn wont be that peacefull i guess .ive heard theories here about pain . A hotel yes would be fine .better though an airbnb since you have a space byyourself and they sure wont interupt