Sanva
:/
- Dec 10, 2021
- 261
I went to a psych ward (low security) a few years ago after attempting to CTB.
What an absolute shit show that was, I don't even know why they acted like they cared. I literally just sat around all fucking day doing nothing because god forbid they give me my phone so I can at least entertain myself in some way.
Most of the other people there were away during the day because they had classes. And if they were there I made it awkward when they tried to talk to me because I'm dumb lmao. One of the therapist women did force me to play board games with some of them when they clearly didn't want me to join so that really cured my severe social anxiety, thanks a lot to that lady.
I told them several times that I tried to kill myself because of my unbearable anxiety and everytime they were like "awww poor baby your depression is clouding your mind :( you can't have social anxiety or be autistic because you're talking to me right now!"
So yeah I stayed there for a few days and then begged them to release me which they did. It was an overall amazing experience that solved all my problems!
But really, going there just made me feel like I was too messed up to even get the people who were supposed to help me to understand my issues. It made me feel even more isolated than I already did and I'm still angry about it. I've heard about some people who had better experiences, so maybe it's just because I'm messed up. But it just showed me how little they actually cared, they just wanted to lock me away.
What an absolute shit show that was, I don't even know why they acted like they cared. I literally just sat around all fucking day doing nothing because god forbid they give me my phone so I can at least entertain myself in some way.
Most of the other people there were away during the day because they had classes. And if they were there I made it awkward when they tried to talk to me because I'm dumb lmao. One of the therapist women did force me to play board games with some of them when they clearly didn't want me to join so that really cured my severe social anxiety, thanks a lot to that lady.
I told them several times that I tried to kill myself because of my unbearable anxiety and everytime they were like "awww poor baby your depression is clouding your mind :( you can't have social anxiety or be autistic because you're talking to me right now!"
So yeah I stayed there for a few days and then begged them to release me which they did. It was an overall amazing experience that solved all my problems!
But really, going there just made me feel like I was too messed up to even get the people who were supposed to help me to understand my issues. It made me feel even more isolated than I already did and I'm still angry about it. I've heard about some people who had better experiences, so maybe it's just because I'm messed up. But it just showed me how little they actually cared, they just wanted to lock me away.
