Venting More honesty

[downndone]

The old post was archived so I'm starting over. I tried to be honest with myself in the original post and I think I was fairly honest. I'm a coward so, when it comes to fight or flight, I'm fleeing. There is a small part of me that doesn't want to CTB. On one hand, I want to be in the life of my granddaughter, to not hurt my children. On the other hand, there is the mess I'm in and the torment I experience every moment of every day. That can't go on. My situation is completely self-inflicted so maybe my ending should be as well.

am I'm the only one that's reached this point because of something they did to themselves?

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

It's all self inflicted. Fear and anxiety led me to choose the easy way at every turn and make impulsive ill advised decisions… now my only way forward is death asap …

 

[Mr2005]

No you're not and if anyone read my posts they'd know that which goes to show how pointless it is writing them in the first place. Someone will be asking the same thing tomorrow

 

[Crazy4u]

I don't know what is fight or flight anymore. All I do is freeze. It makes me crazy

 

[xLosthopex]

Yes