Venting mini rant: been a year, still struggling to get a bottle of benzos.

[notevenhere]

it's been so long that i had to buy a new supply of SN. my antiemetics and antipsychotics that can be used as substitute for antiemetics — are all intact. i won't puke out the poison.

but i need my whole body to relax to the point im shitting and wetting myself. no more muscle control. i need the benzos to defeat S.I. i only have one chance of an attempt and i can't fuck this up.

i believe my partner has a plug for a THC vape. not benzos. thoughts?

 

[AlongThePath]

Speaking from experience, benzos do not completely remove S.I.