Venting Mental illness = thief

[Life_and_Death]

You read where people say 'im not interested' well....i just cant.

Its not that im not interested, id love to, but i cant.

Mental illness stole reading from me. I was hopeful id be able to read again but i still cant. Maybe some day?

A while ago i got hit with a bad case of dissociation. I was completely inside myself, there was no outside world. Ive mostly recovered from it however not completely. When the dissociation hit, it took things away from me. I had to give up reading, the GED i was working towards and anything else like it. My brain just couldnt retain information anymore. I went from being the smart one thats helping other students in class to needing to redo/reread things 2-4 times before it finally sinks in.

I miss reading. I bought books hoping id be able to read again some day but idk. For now i can only dream about knowing their contents.

 

[Life_and_Death]

"i wish there was some way i could help" "as long as youre ok"
I know you both mean well but 'helping' really doesnt help. Its just another reminder. If i was dead, there wouldnt be anything to help.

 

[logan]

I know exactly what you mean.
In a depressive state, you simply can't do many nice things any more.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I know exactly what you mean.
In a depressive state, you simply can't do many nice things any more.

It doesnt have to do with 'a depressive state'. Theres a difference between an emotional i cant and a physical i cant.

 

[Life_and_Death]

My husband suggested i read begginer chapter books. While its a good idea and most likely will help...
I feel so STUPID! I use to read encyclopedias for fun.

 

[logan]

That's not stupid. You have a problem, you look for a solution and you try things out.

 

[Life_and_Death]

That's not stupid. You have a problem, you look for a solution and you try things out.

im not saying it is, but its like a university student having to go back to kindergarten. it gives the feeling of being intellectually stupid

 

[logan]

im not saying it is, but its like a university student having to go back to kindergarten. it gives the feeling of being intellectually stupid

I find it admirable when someone has the courage and the strength to start again despite a heavy defeat.
You can only be proud of that.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I find it admirable when someone has the courage and the strength to start again despite a heavy defeat.
You can only be proud of that.

im trying to be, does that count? lol