Venting Mental illness just scares people away

[rigsid]

I attempted suicide and the first thing I hear on the phone from my mum is her complaining about how it will cost her money to take a taxi to the hospital, and she's asking me how she's meant to afford that. Safe to say I told her not to come.

I had an online friend I thought i could confide in about it as she'd been through similar but she said she didn't want to hear it after not too long.

My only real friend I had has just ghosted me since I told them.

People like to guilt trip you with suicide all about how hard it'd be on people around you but clearly in my case nobody would miss me. I'm pretty sure all my mum would care about is the funeral costs.

But that's not a bad thing honestly. My only regret is that I don't have a garunteed way to kill myself.
I just wish I had a physical illness instead. Something terminal.

People would show me pity instead of disgust, and I wouldn't have to go on.

It's sad to me so many people with lovely lives have stuff like cancer and I am perfectly healthy with nothing to live for.

 

[cluefixphantom]

Hello, I am sorry that your family seems to be so shitty. But I need to tell you It's 100% not because of you having a mental illness—most people know very well that mental illness doesn't exist, and that psychology is a highly capitalistic Nazicult.
Normal people are psychos and like status, they don't like people that are stigmatized as mentally ill, because it usually affects poor, physically unattractive, disabled people whom no one wants. I know this very well. I have disabilities and many find me unattractive, and I am poor, I can't find work. People constantly bully me, and even my own mother, who she herself is not attractive and not healthy, didn't want me anymore. That's why I was locked up in psychiatric hospitals and mistreated there.

And sorry, (or not?) but your mother is toxic, 100% narc imo. She doesn't care about you, she is passiv aggressiv. I know this behavior sadly from my own parents and even social workers, nurses and so on. They dislike me mostly for my face and hair. My body developed kidney issues and my odor is bad too, smells like ammoniac, they gossiped, that I am unhygienic.

 

[rigsid]

Hello, I am sorry that your family seems to be so shitty. But I need to tell you It's 100% not because of you having a mental illness—most people know very well that mental illness doesn't exist, and that psychology is a highly capitalistic Nazicult.
Normal people are psychos and like status, they don't like people that are stigmatized as mentally ill, because it usually affects poor, physically unattractive, disabled people whom no one wants. I know this very well. I have disabilities and many find me unattractive, and I am poor, I can't find work. People constantly bully me, and even my own mother, who she herself is not attractive and not healthy, didn't want me anymore. That's why I was locked up in psychiatric hospitals and mistreated there.

And sorry, (or not?) but your mother is toxic, 100% narc imo. She doesn't care about you, she is passiv aggressiv. I know this behavior sadly from my own parents and even social workers, nurses and so on. They dislike me mostly for my face and hair. My body developed kidney issues and my odor is bad too, smells like ammoniac, they gossiped, that I am unhygienic.

Sorry you're going through that. The world can be so cruel.

Also yeah my mother is emotional abusive :(