Medicine is it worth it?

[airboy_a380]

Hello, I have tried suicide for the last 5 years several times. Without any success obviously. I'm in deep depression, I've tried most medication available, spent fortunes on doctors and pills but always feel miserable. I want to CTB so bad, I really had enough of this world, but don't have the balls to jump from a cliff. And where I live is almost impossible to get a gun! I have a doctors appointment on Monday and feel like I shouldn't go as he's just gonna write more pills that won't do anything. Any answer would be highly appreciated.

 

[Life_and_Death]

have you talked to your doctor? i personally did all my own research and picked my own medications and whatnot.

 

[airboy_a380]

have you talked to your doctor? i personally did all my own research and picked my own medications and whatnot.

I've seen many doctors in 5 years and none was able to help me. So I'm taking this as a last chance. If it doesn't work I'm done!

 

[Life_and_Death]

I've seen many doctors in 5 years and none was able to help me. So I'm taking this as a last chance. If it doesn't work I'm done!

maybe you misunderstood the question. its one thing for a doctor to say "here try this" its another to have your own input into your recovery. instead of just doing whatever the doctor says did you ever voice your own thoughts on the subject?

example: i was at the doctors yesterday and i told him that i want to try rispridone again but maybe with an antidepressant this time as well. i TOLD my doctor what i wanted and backed it up with research and logical thinking as to why this is what i wanted. i didnt let the doctor dictate to me what we are doing. however you should listen to what they have to say as they did go to school for this stuff, but the final decisions should be yours

 

[airboy_a380]

maybe you misunderstood the question. its one thing for a doctor to say "here try this" its another to have your own input into your recovery. instead of just doing whatever the doctor says did you ever voice your own thoughts on the subject?

example: i was at the doctors yesterday and i told him that i want to try rispridone again but maybe with an antidepressant this time as well. i TOLD my doctor what i wanted and backed it up with research and logical thinking as to why this is what i wanted. i didnt let the doctor dictate to me what we are doing. however you should listen to what they have to say as they did go to school for this stuff, but the final decisions should be yours

Yeah I got what u said. In my case I want nothing with risperidone or quetiapine. I just need something to make me feel not sad all the time and I will tell him the extensive medications I took. I don't think he should have much more. I pretty much tried it all without any success.