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Why Not???

Why Not???

Not afraid of the dark
Jan 12, 2022
15
I've been on medications now for about 2 years. I hate them because I suppresses my feelings and emotions. I look happy on the outside but the inside is burning me up. I tried stopping many times taking my medications but then I am a complete mess. My doctor has given up on me and now I have given up on me too. I have a really great therapist but if I have given up on me completely, what's the point of him helping me?

No one can tell me what's wrong with me. I've been waiting for many years to get a diagnosis, but all they do is prescribed me medication. I know I need them to survive my days, but in the end, is it worth it?

My family has no clue what's going on or do they care. Not once have they asked me how I am doing? Yet, we laugh together and can have a normal conversation. I've learned to just pretend all is well around everyone. I want to end it but at the same time, I am afraid of surviving. I take hell over living any day!
 
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lostautist

lostautist

wandering
Jan 12, 2022
225
When I was having medical issues I prayed that I just had cancer so they could diagnose me and start treatment. I did get better but that was a horrible feeling of having something wrong but was told that they were looking into mystery diseases like Raynauds or Lupus that had no real options to cure. I'm sorry, I hope you can at least get a diagnosis to relieve some anxiety.
 
UpandDownPrincess

UpandDownPrincess

Elementalist
Dec 31, 2019
833
I'm going to be a real jerk here, so you might want to move on down and just ignore this.

You need to choose about your meds. Either take them or don't, but don't keep stopping and starting. Things will never get better if you keep this up.

When you short-time your meds, you run a serious risk of them being less effective the next time you try them. You can run out of options pretty quickly if you keep eliminating possible solutions.

Diagnoses mean nothing. They mean less than nothing. They are a label and are useless. All that matters is how you feel, if what you're doing is working and if you want to keep trying or try something else.

If you're still talking to your therapist, even if you go and sit there the whole session, that's not giving up. You're still hanging on to something.

There are lots of folks who can speak about meds and what's working for them in the recovery section. Please visit there. Ask questions. You seem to be asking for reasons to keep going or to give up on yourself, but only you can decide that. Don't let anyone tell you what to do.
 
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Why Not???

Why Not???

Not afraid of the dark
Jan 12, 2022
15
I'm going to be a real jerk here, so you might want to move on down and just ignore this.

You need to choose about your meds. Either take them or don't, but don't keep stopping and starting. Things will never get better if you keep this up.

When you short-time your meds, you run a serious risk of them being less effective the next time you try them. You can run out of options pretty quickly if you keep eliminating possible solutions.

Diagnoses mean nothing. They mean less than nothing. They are a label and are useless. All that matters is how you feel, if what you're doing is working and if you want to keep trying or try something else.

If you're still talking to your therapist, even if you go and sit there the whole session, that's not giving up. You're still hanging on to something.

There are lots of folks who can speak about meds and what's working for them in the recovery section. Please visit there. Ask questions. You seem to be asking for reasons to keep going or to give up on yourself, but only you can decide that. Don't let anyone tell you what to do.
Thanks but now I feel like an idiot!
 

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