Venting maybe he’s right

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he's in hospital and he's pushing me away. ive been pushing him away while he's been there. i love him too much to hurt him by being around him. now he's pushing me away i don't want him to have no support and be lonely because it's bad for him. he doesn't want to be around me because he feels guilty, i'll never be able to convince him that it's not his fault. he wants to push me away so he doesn't feel like he's hurting me any more. i love him and it pains me so much. but if he can have some closure by me not being around i hope it's the right thing to do. i cant hold myself back from him, i keep messaging him and communicating when i said i wouldn't. he doesn't need reminders. i don't know if i'll ever see him again, i'm so lonely without him.

 

[boc]

I don't know the details. But it sounds like this is incredibly painful. I know how it feels to be pushed away from someone you love, and it is terrible. I hope you're doing alright. Feel free to reach out.