Venting Masturbation addiction

[cowboypants]

It has gotten worse in the recent months I'm spending hours doing it. I had the same cycle when I was way younger. It's the only thing that doesn't give me many side effects, things like cannabis makes me paranoia worse and trigger psychotic episodes, which I was trying recently.

In the daytime I scramble to save content from insta or wherever which I had uninstalled for a few years, but I also feel so tired of waking up and doing chores even eating feels like a chore, although I like food not necessarily like the idea of eating to survive. I have lost interest in pretty much everything, don't have interest in watching movies, travel or food. I feel like I'm forcing myself to do it to pass time.

It's one of the things I can live for, but I can't imagine this lifestyle in my 30s and the loneliness. I don't have as much of interest when I'm not doing it, which I guess is a little weird, but I guess I'm overdoing it at this point. For a pretty long time it has been a problem since I started way too young at many times I can't fall asleep without doing it. I'm kinda weak physically already, not sure if it has to do with that

 

[DivineSpark]

It sounds like you might struggle with anhedonia as well.

 

[Linda]

Stop worrying about it. But you obviously need to find something to do that will occupy a lot of your time. Using masturbation to fill a gap won't do you any harm, but it's not addressing the underlying issue.

 

[cowboypants]

Stop worrying about it. But you obviously need to find something to do that will occupy a lot of your time. Using masturbation to fill a gap won't do you any harm, but it's not addressing the underlying issue.

Yeah, but I don't have the will power to do anything else, and since I have been unemployed. I have a massive amount of free time.

I wish I had the courage to off myself early instead of distracting myself, I have gotten way too used to this

 

[badatparties]

I have the opposite problem. Depression an anhedonia so high that i don't even bother.

 

[cowboypants]

I have the opposite problem. Depression an anhedonia so high that i don't even bother.

I have been through been such periods when I'm in a "depressive psychotic episode". I go insane if my mind doesn't want to do anything

 

[Worndown]

Go for a walk? Do something different. Try to break the routine.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Honestly, don't see how whacking the pud is all that bad, especially if you don't have anyone to do it for you. It really harms nobody and is a pretty good stress reliever.