Marilyn Monroe

[divinemistress36]

Was just reading about Marilyn Monroe who was 36 which is my age and how she ctb with barbiturates . Aww what a time to be alive then to have doctors prescribe that to ctb..sigh..

 

[CantDoIt]

Was just reading about Marilyn Monroe who was 36 which is my age and how she ctb with barbiturates . Aww what a time to be alive then to have doctors prescribe that to ctb..sigh..

God yeah I'm so jealous. Even having them as a backup supply would make me feel so much better about myself. I would like something I could use at any moment. Even as an impulsive death you're barely conscious for any amount of time after consuming it.

Having SN around is starting to not make me feel any better.

 

[Praying 4 a Miracle]

I read she was bipolar, and was also addicted to them (barbiturates along with many other drugs)

 

[divinemistress36]

God yeah I'm so jealous. Even having them as a backup supply would make me feel so much better about myself. I would like something I could use at any moment. Even as an impulsive death you're barely conscious for any amount of time after consuming it.

Having SN around is starting to not make me feel any better.

Same its a lot of prep work

 

[CantDoIt]

Same its a lot of prep work

I also don't want 20 minutes to "think about what I've done"

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

I also don't want 20 minutes to "think about what I've done"

Same. Also, if I have to resort to SN in the worst case scenario, I won't be able to get any benzos so I'm sure they'd be very agonizing 20 minutes ugh. On the positive side, I will only have to go through this once and then it's over. I guess I'd have to make that my mantra during those 20 minutes. And also what if it is longer than 20 min :(

Was just reading about Marilyn Monroe who was 36 which is my age and how she ctb with barbiturates . Aww what a time to be alive then to have doctors prescribe that to ctb..sigh..

Those old bastards didn't know how lucky they were!! I'd give anything to be able to travel back in time just to get some old school sleeping pills. Or just to make sure my parents never met lol.

 

[sevennn]

I also don't want 20 minutes to "think about what I've done"

also vomiting everywhere and having stomach and throat pain

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

also vomiting everywhere and having stomach and throat pain

Oh yes. And me personally, I do not salt my food so I am very apprehensive if I'd be able to gulp down such a salty substance like it's nothing.

 

[sevennn]

Oh yes. And me personally, I do not salt my food so I am very apprehensive if I'd be able to gulp down such a salty substance like it's nothing.

yeah. and i have stomach issues like a hernia. and my throat is already in pain from lots of things. sucks that's the only option. i have another option but dunno how to do an IV and just too difficult maybe the pain is worth it everyday is dragging on past my expiration date. i don't want anything anymore out of this existence

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

sucks that's the only option. i have another option but dunno how to do an IV and just too difficult maybe the pain is worth it everyday is dragging on past my expiration date. i don't want anything anymore out of this existence

Same. I plan on traveling to try to find N but who knows if I will succeed. I think it's telling how much I don't want to do SN, that I am willing to go through all these hurdles in hopes to find N lol. Like you, there is nothing else I want out of this bullshit existence. Just a peaceful exit, that is all.

 

[Yavannah]

i think about this almost everyday!
also they had carbon monoxide oven back then (Sylvia Plath)
it was the golden age for suicidal people now were fucked and its not getting any better..

 

[lnlybnny]

It's impressive how ''easy'' it was to ctb back then in such a peaceful way and nowadays there isn't anything that comes near :(

 

[divinemistress36]

W

It's impressive how ''easy'' it was to ctb back then in such a peaceful way and nowadays there isn't anything that comes near :(

We picked the wrong era to be suicidal!

 

[Defenestration]

Je viens de lire un article sur Marilyn Monroe qui avait 36 ans, soit mon âge, et sur la façon dont elle a pris des barbituriques. Oh, quelle époque pour être en vie et voir des médecins prescrire cela pour prendre des barbituriques... soupir...

Yes jealous
Before,easier to commit suicide

 

[*Winter-Volume*]

Yes, we're child proofing our lives. At this rate, it will be impossible to ctb soon. Freedom gone the way of the Dodo.

 

[lnlybnny]

W

We picked the wrong era to be suicidal!

Why??? So unfair

 

[endofline2010]

And today we have F and nitazenes which are incredibly deadly as well as easy and cheap to have shipped right to your door. No doctor or in person drug dealers needed. I think we are better off today, not worse.

 

[Csmith8827]

Was just reading about Marilyn Monroe who was 36 which is my age and how she ctb with barbiturates . Aww what a time to be alive then to have doctors prescribe that to ctb..sigh..

Shes's an interesting Icon. I guess? I really don't know much about her besides her picuture. Her face was OK. We all have beautiful faces IMO...well not necessarily everyone...but I think most people can derive some beauty from an individuals face. She was kinda idolized though IMO which I DO NOT LIKE...but I had no idea she died at 36. Hell i'm 36. That's pretty cool. Maybe I'll meet her in the afterlife.

 

[Pluto]

Mitsou was a white Persian cat that Marilyn Monroe owned in New York in the mid 1950s.

 

[LostSoul1965]

It's impressive how ''easy'' it was to ctb back then in such a peaceful way and nowadays there isn't anything that comes near :(

If suicide were "so easy" then there would not be a need for this site with so many members. Plus many more that haven't found it yet. But how many will actually do it? There is no truly easy way. I see people bashing different methods but claim to be highly suicidal. When life becomes so unbearable that it overrides SI only then will suicide become possible. At that point one will do what it takes at any cost. Just my opinion.

 

[neonzebra]

Damn, 36. That's my age too.
The most beautiful woman in the world, a movie star, the most powerful men in the world at her feet.. and still miserable. Idk if she really intended to kill herself (or perhaps was murdered), but she was definitely an unhappy person.
It makes me wonder if this crappy life of mine is something I can ever fix.. even if everything goes well for me I'll still have this mind.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

ironically i was at the opportunity of a lifetime when N from D was selling Nembutal online by email . i wish i would have focused more on suicide and gotten at least 4 bottles N from D. i procrastinated too scared of government and police arresting me.

imo having ability to purchase Nembutal puts any human and any sentient being above any in history . for many reasons . but one is that most natural dyings are horrible .

never existing is quadrillion times better. but then once they force you into this horrible life the best thing to have is a guaranteed painless suicide method.

Damn, 36. That's my age too.
The most beautiful woman in the world, a movie star, the most powerful men in the world at her feet.. and still miserable. Idk if she really intended to kill herself (or perhaps was murdered), but she was definitely an unhappy person.
It makes me wonder if this crappy life of mine is something I can ever fix.. even if everything goes well for me I'll still have this mind.

I think Marylynn took Nembutal pills . i think each one was 100 mg. so she'd have to take tons of these pills . imo it was suicide. you'd have to believe some murderer knew that nembutal pills were deadly and the correct number and then force her to take 40 pills . it takes a lot of effort to make yourself swallow 40 to 50 pills more . only someone very determined to kill yourself would be able to do this. if a murderer wanted her to take poison it would be cyanide because only 1 or 2 pills would do it as cyanide LDL is in the mg.

 

[needthebus]

Damn, 36. That's my age too.
The most beautiful woman in the world, a movie star, the most powerful men in the world at her feet.. and still miserable. Idk if she really intended to kill herself (or perhaps was murdered), but she was definitely an unhappy person.
It makes me wonder if this crappy life of mine is something I can ever fix.. even if everything goes well for me I'll still have this mind.

many think she was murdered

 

[Dmoore3232]

Was just reading about Marilyn Monroe who was 36 which is my age and how she ctb with barbiturates . Aww what a time to be alive then to have doctors prescribe that to ctb..sigh..

she might have been killed for threatening to talk about stuff JFK told her. Everyone got killed in that era.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

many think she was murdered

so they forced her to swallow 50 nembutal pills instead of 1 cyanide capsule ?

the lethal dose of cyanide is around 200 mg. the lethal does of cyanide is only about 1-3 milligrams per killogram. of Nembutal around 70 mg per kilogram .

i think the autopsy said she died of Nembutal poisoning but she had to have taken a whole bottle of pills because those pills only contain 100mg.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

This is why I hate it when people say the best time of human history is now. Personally, I think the best time of human history was when medicine was starting to appear and people didn't know about the effects of N. I think that everything has declined since then

 

[lnlybnny]

If suicide were "so easy" then there would not be a need for this site with so many members.

I don't think you actually understood what I said. I said BACK THEN (50s) it was easier to ctb because N was easier to obtain.

Mitsou was a white Persian cat that Marilyn Monroe owned in New York in the mid 1950s.

I love looking at her pictures, she was so pretty. I've been reading the PPH and they mention her and I suddenly felt such jealousy lol that's why I bumped this thread

 

[maniac116]

In the 1970s seconal, nembutal & tuinal as well as others were used recreationally. I used them all. It was good times!!
I didn't realize at the time how important these drugs could be. It was just a way to get high ...
Good times indeed!

 

[NegevChina]

i think about this almost everyday!
also they had carbon monoxide oven back then (Sylvia Plath)
it was the golden age for suicidal people now were fucked and its not getting any better..

Also back then you could easily get CO poisoning from the car exhaust before the catalytic converters were a standard in cars.

 

[Caliguy]

Was just reading about Marilyn Monroe who was 36 which is my age and how she ctb with barbiturates . Aww what a time to be alive then to have doctors prescribe that to ctb..sigh..

I don't think she intended to die she also had high levels of chloral hydrate in combination of barbiturates. The drugs weren't easy to get either the movie studios would pay her doctors to give her meds to get her to sleep and then uppers to get her on set to work.