Making excuses to not CTB

[IWantToSleep]

I've been thinking I should wait until after the lockdown but fuck it I think I'm just making excuses. I wanted to get a haircut and look fairly decent when I end it, but I think I'm just making stuff up so I can avoid going through with it.

 

[Mentalmick]

Maybe you're just not ready to go.

 

[WornOutLife]

Don't worry. You're not the only one.
I've been procrastinating my suicide since I'm 12.

 

[Gonjoolie]

That just means you aren't ready yet. Nothing wrong with that. Whatever you choose we'll be here for ya

 

[wordsonscreen]

It is okay to want to avoid it, you know. You do not HAVE to :)

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I've been thinking I should wait until after the lockdown but fuck it I think I'm just making excuses. I wanted to get a haircut and look fairly decent when I end it, but I think I'm just making stuff up so I can avoid going through with it.

I don't know about you or anyobody else but the logical part of my brain tells me i need to go but there are other parts that make excuses.

 

[Jblack]

It all means that you are ready to exit. Step back reevaluate your reasons and understand what you really want. I feel that I will know when it is time to CTB. I have come close a couple of times, a kind of peace settles over me, I obviously have not carried out my plan as SI stops me, letting me know to wait.

 

[muffin222]

It's okay to not be ready. There's no rush- the option will always be there