Main reason?

[6ftunder]

What is the main reason that causes you to want to 'ctb'?

I feel so lonely and probably childhood trauma from crap parents.

 

[Manaaja]

Fuck this body of mine.
Fuck my family and relatives.
Fuck this house/living conditions.
Fuck needing money to live in this world and not having it.
Fuck psychiatrists, not going back, fuck how they took away my personal assistants! I miss having someone visit me every week and help me and guide me!
Fuck people.
Fuck having my dog murdered.
Fuck this boring ugly uninteresting world.
I feel like I have already experienced all there is in this world. I cannot fathom how some people can be 90 and still want to live, while I feel like I have already completed the whole game and all the dlcs and expansion packs before my 30th birthday.
Those other worlds looking fine!

Pick one from them. Oh, and I'm also really lonely too. I wish that not every one of those four people moved away. Hmm, what the hell are the chances that I had four people I liked spending time with and they all moved away to other cities/towns in the span of a few years? I also had people I interacted with while walking my dog, but those people stopped taking walks after their dogs died or they moved away, and I no longer have my own dog, so I can't get social contact from them either. Oh, and without personal assistants visiting me, I now have even less people I meet with or talk with.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just hate living. Life itself is my main reason. I simply prefer the sound of non existence to any kind of life and I do not see my life as being worth living. Life is extremely pointless and unnecessary and I want nothing to do with life at all. By dying, I will free myself from all suffering, and nothing can hurt me then. I was perfectly fine not existing until I was forced to live. I wish that I never existed in the first place.

 

[houseofleaves]

Three reasons (all main):
I won't have a caring lover on Earth.
I won't have a career on Earth.
The woman that loved me very much (my new mom basically) stopped doing so.

That's it! :)

 

[Symbiote]

A lot of my issues are self-inflicted and may have been because of a bad upbringing and childhood trauma. I have a hard time connecting with humans in general and feel out of place 99% of the time. I believe I wasn't meant to be here.

 

[Lullaby]

I've been battling PTSD, depression and anxiety for 15 years now.

There have been some good moments here and there, times where I felt like things were finally going to get better but it was always temporary. Things have gotten progressively worse as the years go on; more disappointments, more pain, more failures.

So I want to CTB because I'm just tired. I don't want to be here another 10-15 years from now still in this same position. Hell, I don't want to be here another 3 years from now in this same spot. I fought really hard but I'm ready to go.

 

[FractalTears]

Bad health and life in general. I'm not willing to put any efforts in anymore just to enjoy more suffering.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I've answered this way too much.

To answer: I am not a cis female. I am a cis male and I absolutely hate it. I can't go day to day without being jealous of the opposite sex and I hate the male body. I cannot live a natural life as I want to so I don't want to exist period.

Before you ask, No I won't transition nor consider it. It is not for me personally and wouldn't work to my standards. I am a vain person whom looks matter the most to.

 

[Rational man]

W
Serious health issues.

 

[Banshee]

Hate myself, hate living, destroyed my life, which is now unfixable. You know.. the basics.

 

[Idontmatter]

Severe depression that medications or therapy won't help. Suicidal thoughts 24/7

 

[Capsaicin78]

I ruined my life and also I realized that I'll never be happy. It won't matter how hard I try, I'll never be.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I'll try to sum up the overall feeling in brief: bitterness about the pains of life and envying the better outcomes which others have seemed to enjoy.

 

[jimmy7754]

I can't live my life like a western movie..

 

[FinishingLine]

Every opportunity given to me I failed at. Education and career building, friendships, partnerships leading to have eventually an own family.
But I sucked at everything. It all crumbled down and vanished completely and I am back now where I started of - being 50 years old and living with my dad in his house.

Just lying in the dark room where I grew up as a child for over 3 month now.
Sleeping the whole day.

All my failures in my previous life exposed themselves way too hard and an relationship with a women of two years 12 years ago! is continuing to haunt me every minute I´m awake.

I am a complete failure, I destroyed everything.. it´s continuing downhill.

 

[Brianiskillingme]

I've been battling PTSD, depression, Borderline and anxiety for 25 years and I want to be with my deceased husband.

 

[Danthedead]

I keep fucking everything up with my life. I'm way too sensitive, too lazy, and too anxious to do anything done (and the fact that I have autism, mixed with a crappy childhood and teenagehood makes things 100 times worse). I'm tired of being a burden to my family, I'm sick of this endless circle of self-sabotage.

 

[Laba]

I have nobody.
The rest of my family is shit.
My last friends treated me like shit and take everything i had and loved.
I also live in germany, the most grey and depressed country i've ever see...
I hate most of the humans because they bring people to suffer and they don't care about anything than money or materialism. I just want to end this all for me.

 

[Atlantian]

Right now its because I fuckimg hate people. I truly think humans in general are pieces of shits. They kill, lie, are mostly stupid, and just make life difficult for others. I can't see myself pretending to like them for 80+ years. Covid really exposed how shitty the average person is, me included. Now that I think about it, most of the stress in my life comes directly from being annoyed by the actions of others

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Hmm, what the hell are the chances that I had four people I liked spending time with and they all moved away to other cities/towns in the span of a few years?

What are the chances that my ENTIRE family would die within the last three years, which has left me as the last one with absolutely no one? What are the odds? It happened. Time to go. Not my only reason, but the final straw, certainly.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

sexual regrets