
cylus46
Member
- Jan 28, 2025
- 60
been at an all time low this week. Which is every week. But this week this girl wants me to drive down and get kinky with her if ykwim and most guys my age would jump at the opportunity and honestly I kind of want to. She's definitely my type but at the same time...I'm tired of lust.
I feel so sad, empty, angry, hurt, broken, I just want a nice lady to hold me, kiss my cheek and tell me they care...Tell me that I'm the one they want...tell me that I'm handsome, that despite my flaws I'm beautiful.
I want to feel their matter on mine. Their warm radiating onto mine, their long hair entangled with my own, their exhales hitting my neck and mine hitting theirs, Their lips hitting my own. People don't fucking understand. To them it's a normal cuddle session but to me it's everything. It's my soul touching theirs, it's the drug that silences my brain. I want them to see my mental breakdown and hold me instead of running away.
I'm sick of lust, I've sexted, I've made out, I've flirted and it's all empty. It's all so shallow. I don't even think I'm that hot...frankly all I can see if my flaws, I don't even know how I manage to pull as much as I have. Maybe it's the long hair and muscles.
But regardless none of that stuff does anything to me anymore
I want someone magical. I want someone who actually wants me. Someone who actually cares about me.
Someone who actually loves me.
I feel so sad, empty, angry, hurt, broken, I just want a nice lady to hold me, kiss my cheek and tell me they care...Tell me that I'm the one they want...tell me that I'm handsome, that despite my flaws I'm beautiful.
I want to feel their matter on mine. Their warm radiating onto mine, their long hair entangled with my own, their exhales hitting my neck and mine hitting theirs, Their lips hitting my own. People don't fucking understand. To them it's a normal cuddle session but to me it's everything. It's my soul touching theirs, it's the drug that silences my brain. I want them to see my mental breakdown and hold me instead of running away.
I'm sick of lust, I've sexted, I've made out, I've flirted and it's all empty. It's all so shallow. I don't even think I'm that hot...frankly all I can see if my flaws, I don't even know how I manage to pull as much as I have. Maybe it's the long hair and muscles.
But regardless none of that stuff does anything to me anymore
I want someone magical. I want someone who actually wants me. Someone who actually cares about me.
Someone who actually loves me.