lowkey just waiting for MY HEART TO GIVE OUT

[glowing.purple.aura]

I swear I am always in flight-or-fight mode, always stressed, always worried about something literally to the point where I just start involuntarily twitching from the anxiety and paying too much attention to it sends a shiver down my spine that can only be stopped by giving into the physical stress and twitching on purpose. this combined with the multiple energy drinks every day for years and I still haven't gotten lucky enough for my heart to just BURST... it must be so angry at me and it doesn't help that there isn't a single person around me who cares how their lack of urgency and "just push through it" attitude affects me.

 

[badatparties]

Yeah, i feel you. There have been reports of people dying from grief and what not. I think there's truth to that. When you have no will to go on, i guess the heart sometimes says fuck it.

Ditto flight or fight mode and anxiety. Thank you PTSD.