Love

[Ender]

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.
I just wanted someone to love me.
And you, a fool above me, an me, a fool below you.
You appear to me and my mind every time, and yet still we can't be.
Why? WHY?!
I need you to believe, I need you to remember.
How desperate I have become, crawling on my knees.
And yet I still love you.
I am attracted to your personality, to your compassion, to your kindness.
You are everything that I am not, I am nothing.
There is no love, there is no love, a planet that does not exist.
I too am a ghost, but aren't we all?

This is from my journal. I don't like sharing my journal to anyone, but this has been really making me sad and bothering me. I wish I can be loved, I still love someone who just doesn't love me. Is it so hard to be loved? This just adds to my suicidality. It adds to my depression. I feel like I just want to break. Sorry.

 

[Blue Rose]

Nobody can predict even what will happen in a few seconds.
It will console youreself, surely.

Until my boyfriend told his love to me on Oct 2021,
I had felt that I would die in the near future complerely alone.

 

[737492]

Nobody can predict even what will happen in a few seconds.
It will console youreself, surely.

Until my boyfriend told his love to me on Oct 2021,
I had felt that I would die in the near future complerely alone.

Not everyone is capable of finding love. Some people really end up dying alone.