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Darkover

Darkover

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Jul 29, 2021
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Yeah, losing love—or even just the illusion of it—can leave a hole that feels unbearable. It's not just about missing someone; it's about how they made life feel meaningful, and when they're gone, everything feels stripped down and hollow.

It's that contrast between having something and losing it that makes the suffering so intense. Before, the emptiness was just there, unnoticed, but now it's loud, crushing, impossible to ignore. Some people can fill that void with distractions or new connections, but others just see it for what it is—a reminder of what can never be the same again.

I get why that could push someone over the edge. The grief, the loneliness, the feeling that nothing will ever matter in the same way again—it's all heavy. And the worst part? Most people don't really understand unless they've felt it too.

Yeah, that's actually a really common experience. Losing something that made life bearable—whether it's love, friendship, stability, or even just a sense of purpose—can make going back to loneliness feel unbearable. Even if you're technically in the same place you started, it doesn't feel the same because you've now experienced something better. That contrast between "what was" and "what is" can be devastating.

There are definitely people who ctb over this. Grief, abandonment, and the feeling that life used to have some meaning but now doesn't—those things can push people to the edge. It's like, before, you didn't know what you were missing, but now you do, and that makes the emptiness so much worse.

Yeah, it's the awareness of what you've lost that makes the emptiness even harder to bear. Before, you might have lived without knowing what real connection felt like, but once you've tasted it—even if it was brief—it changes everything. And then when it's gone, you're left with this stark contrast, this painful reminder of how things could have been, or once were. It's like a kind of cruelty, the way life can take something beautiful away just as you realize how much it means.

And that feeling of "nothing will ever matter in the same way again" is brutal. It's not just grief—it's the loss of hope for ever finding something that gives you that same sense of purpose or warmth. It's the awareness that the world will always feel a little colder after you've known what it's like to be held, to matter to someone. That's when it can feel impossible to move forward.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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It's the main reason I don't want to invite love and its companion- loss into my life again. The highs don't seem worth the lows. I much prefer being on a more even keel or at least, being more sensible about the whole situation.

As in- you can still appreciate people. It's even safe-ish to have impossible crushes on say: film stars. Just, try not to bring in the hope/ expectation that friends will stick around or relationships will blossom.

It's so easy to be sucked back in though. Maybe it's what we're naturally set up to yearn for the most- after our basic survival necessities. Still, it can be an awful trap. So, I'm super wary now of those types of attachment feelings and where they usually lead. The alternative is that you learn to accept loss as part of life but, that feels even harder.
 
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RandomFellowIdc

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Jan 30, 2025
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This, word for word, is exactly what I am going through right now. to say it's soul crushing is an understatement. What is the point anymore when the one person who made life worth living abandoned you?
 
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Pluto

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BlueButterfly111

Autistic and Heartbroken
Dec 26, 2024
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This is exactly how I feel😭
 
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Jarni

Jarni

Love is a toothache in the heart. H.Heine
Dec 12, 2020
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So true.....
 
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NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
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Guess I should be glad that I'll never have to experience a breakup.
 
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usernamesarehard

usernamesarehard

Life sucks and then you die
Dec 22, 2021
213
Yup, pretty much agree with everything here. People say 'it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all', but I think that's said by people who CAN get into a relationship and can do so fairly easily. It most certainly is not better. Before I was dumped I was passively suicidal, now, because I'm acutely aware there's a chance I'll have to wait another 20 years to HOPEFULLY try again or I'll just have to ctb sometime soon to spare myself that misery, I'm very much actively suicidal. Everyday I think about killing myself, before it was more 'I hope something kills me/ I die in my sleep'. Everyday I change the date and conditions. One day it's November next year, the next it's November 2027 if I can't get a job out of the city I'm in, another day I feel like I should TRY giving life a fair chance and ctb at 30 if I'm still dissatisfied. I don't think the break up bothers me too much anymore, it's more the thought that I might never find someone again and I'm completely and utterly fucked.
 

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