Lost and confused

[Tiredandguilty]

Hi. This my first post and I'm not sure where to turn. I am in a dark place and feel like life will never be the same again. I'm 37 years old and last week cut myself for the first time. I find myself researching daily different Suicide methods. My brain is a mess of mixed emotion. although I do have a family and few friends I can't open up to them as the feeling of guilt and embarrassment is to much to put on my family. I need help but can only see me ending my life as the only peaceful option. I think I'm going crazy. I don't want to sleep as that means having to do another day tomorrow. I've cried a river of tears but am now just numb to it all. Sorry for the rant.

 

[Lostnotfound]

I think we've all been there to some extent. I cant say it gets better as thats down to individual circumstances. All I can say is stop and take a breath and try to see why you are feeling like this. There is always someone here to talk to and you can always vent on the forum if you find it helps you

 

[s1mplem3]

You can open up to us. Don't be sorry about your feelings, you may cry how much you want. I'm here if you want to talk.

 

[Dear Flabby]

Welcome!
would it help you to talk about what brought you here?
Many of us have been through life's twists and turns, and it really eases the burden to speak freely about the troubles that brought you here.
I found relief talking about my troubles because this is a safe and compassionate space. I realized that I could delay suicide.
Help and recovery exists here, for those who choose it.

 

[NotMeantForHere]

Hi. This my first post and I'm not sure where to turn. I am in a dark place and feel like life will never be the same again. I'm 37 years old and last week cut myself for the first time. I find myself researching daily different Suicide methods. My brain is a mess of mixed emotion. although I do have a family and few friends I can't open up to them as the feeling of guilt and embarrassment is to much to put on my family. I need help but can only see me ending my life as the only peaceful option. I think I'm going crazy. I don't want to sleep as that means having to do another day tomorrow. I've cried a river of tears but am now just numb to it all. Sorry for the rant.

I'm so sorry you're going through that. I think this is a good place to find support..