Loss of enjoyment in life

[avoid_slow_death]

Has anyone else here lost the enjoyment of things they cherished when you were not thinking seriously of CTB? For me, I cannot concentrate on books, which I adored, video games, most music and basically everything I enjoyed before that brought me solace even in my darkest of times.

 

[AlreadyGone]

Yup. I can't enjoy anything anymore. I collect movies, play video games, watch anime, tv, and am into photography. My feelings of hopelessness makes all of this feel more like a waste of time.

 

[waterbottleman]

Has anyone else here lost the enjoyment of things they cherished when you were not thinking seriously of CTB? For me, I cannot concentrate on books, which I adored, video games, most music and basically everything I enjoyed before that brought me solace even in my darkest of times.

Yup.

My hobbies used to be reading books, investing in the stock market, cooking, fashion, math, programing, and exercise.

One by one I've lost my interest in all of these hobbies.

I still cook but I only do it to eat. I used to try to become a better cook, experiment with new things, etc. Now I just cook the same stuff over and over again cause my passion is gone and I don't care anymore.

 

[foreveryoung]

I'd like to stay as long as I can to endulge in all the hobbies I have, but eventually it will all be taken away.
From the dhammapada:
Verse 47. Pleasure Seeker Is Swept Away(http://www.buddhanet.net/dhammapada/d_flower.htm)

For one who has a clinging mind
and gathers only pleasure-flowers,
Death does seize and carry away
as great flood a sleeping village.

Explanation: Those men and women , fascinated by worldly things, go about seeking pleasure, like a garland-maker picking the flowers of his choice in a garden. But, gradually and silently, death overcomes them like a flood in the night sweeping away a village asleep.

 

[-Raven's Night-]

I feel the same... I used to draw pictures and post them, and wrote poems and post them... and many other passion and hobbies.
Until now I still think them as my hobbies but I don't find any motivation for them anymore. Like I once tried to come back to them but I couldn't get satisfied with my work. I stopped listening metal music crazily...
Because of my boring life that takes all my passion away. i'd better stop...

 

[Chalken]

I do all these things, but I no longer enjoy them. It's just to distract myself and pass the time.

 

[kira1]

Can't enjoy things I used to love either. Everything feels like a waste of time and I have neither energy nor concentration to do the simplest things. And honestly there's no point I will die soon anyway

 

[TAW122]

I wouldn't say that I've lost ALL enjoyment in the current moment, but I have lost a lot of it. Things that are really fun are still fun, but never as much as they were before. I don't plan on looking for new (potential) interests, I just don't care enough about it to want to do so, and I simply just want to rest. After I done what I set out to do, including tying loose ends, and accomplishing a few personal goals for myself, I'd find a time, place, and brace myself, then check out.

 

[DrummerWhoLovesMilk]

I've lost enjoyment in almost everything. Communicating to other humans, music, sex... The list goes on. When I'm not working I play video games, search this website, eat, and listen to podcasts. Feeling like Squidward, but at least he picks up his clarinet to practice. Squidward is making me look bad, haha.

 

[Starseedchip]

Yep nothing makes me feel good anymore not even my vices. Sleep is my only pleasure now

 

[mathieu]

Yeah, I spend all my time trying to sleep. Nothing gives me enjoyment at all anymore. Just drugs.

 

[liverpoolfan]

I can still enjoy things (sex, playing music, weight lifting, watching Liverpool win ) but I don't feel like there's any real purpose or meaning to it. It's just displacement techniques until I get all my shit squared away and GTFO.
Like, I used to write songs all my life (and got successful as a musician as a result) but the sense that writing songs - or doing any creative project - has any point has utterly passed. I used to think what I had to say was important and my ideas deserved to be heard - but now I don't think they matter at all. Nothing really matters.

I'm planning to get some friends to go to Liverpool to celebrate us finally winning the only football prize which has eluded us (and maybe sneaking in one last musical performance). Then I want to give my mates a hug, say good bye, and get this fucking done.

 

[Neurodamaged2]

Honestly this can be caused primarily by one of two things: drugs ("medication") and genuine emotional depression. Most people I've met have been on some kind of drugs; which end up causing Anhedonia, and a few were depressed by current issues in their life.

drugs: primarily SSRIs, some anti psychotics (aka anti-dopaminerginics sp?), alcohol, weed, rarely tobacco.

emotional: plenty.Too many reasons to list but basically brain was normal but life was shit.

In my opinion, if it's the former you're basically screwed unless you luck out and brain somehow heals, if the latter then give it time for the situation to eventually end.

just my two cents.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I use to draw a lot. No enjoyment from it anymore. Reading I still kinda like but it's more just filling a void

 

[Jean4]

If someone asked me what do I like doing in my free time. What are your hobbies? I can say nothing.

I stay in my apartment all day. Work from my house. Unless there is a doctor's appointment, I don't leave.

I wasn't always this way. I wanted to do things. I think after so long of having no friends to do things with, no money, and not wanting to do things alone, I became more of a hermit.

I convinced myself after so many years, it was ok to be alone and this was my life.

A protection mechanism. Convince yourself there is nothing you like or want to do, so the loneliness doesn't get you.

When I was a young adult, I wasn't like this. I wanted to be part of a group. Have friends. In college I never fit in. Always was awkward. I think these feelings started then.

I always thought, what would have happened if I joined a sorority. Then I think, I would have hated it. Hated the phoniness.

I wanted to have a life. I don't think I ever fit in or know how to.

 

[zherhk]

When you're empty because of something, and you don't or can't manage to fill the gap made by one of multiple issues, nothing can fill emptiness.

 

[Sk1n1M1n]

Yes I'm totally the same when I'm im good place it's noticable i can enjoy life but then my life could get better and I still lose interest And I have periods where i become numb and it seems the obvious choice one day ctb,