I can't enjoy things anymore. I can't stand music, I can't stand movies, I can't stand going out, I can't stand eating. You get the idea. I'm trying so hard to be able to let myself enjoy things without overthinking, but I just can't. I just want to lock myself away in my room forever in bed and never have to deal with whatever goes on outside. I have no energy to learn and interact with the world around me. I have grown so lazy and lousy throughout the years. I'm so ashamed of myself. What is this like for you? What do you do with yourself when you lose the initiative to do anything completely? I still have to work. So it's not like I can sit and sulk for hours whenever I want to.
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bipolar22
Bpd. chronic gastritis. ibs. depression. AUD
- Aug 31, 2022
- 221
Haven't left my house in 4 months except for taking out the garbage and an er visit for panic attack and malnourishedment recently.
I at least find some enjoyment watching movies but that's it.
eating too little. Tired of making food and cleaning. But I have to now. I'm getting physically ill from too little food.
I used to be very active even before suicide attempts studying and training in the gym. But there's nothing left for me to do and it's all senseless now. Darkt times.
I at least find some enjoyment watching movies but that's it.
eating too little. Tired of making food and cleaning. But I have to now. I'm getting physically ill from too little food.
I used to be very active even before suicide attempts studying and training in the gym. But there's nothing left for me to do and it's all senseless now. Darkt times.
pretentioussuika
compassionate gaijin
- Apr 6, 2025
- 74
In the same boat. I can't enjoy anything on my own anymore. But i also don't have any friends.
bipolar22
Bpd. chronic gastritis. ibs. depression. AUD
- Aug 31, 2022
- 221
pretentioussuika
compassionate gaijin
- Apr 6, 2025
- 74
No, friends are necessary. Good luck making any in 2025 though. Especially when you're a miserable aack of shit.
WanderingGypsy
Member
- Jan 14, 2025
- 32
I'm so sorry you've lost interest in so much, and I can totally relate! For me this has been the last straw and a sign that it's time to ctb. The things that use to help pull me out of my darkness and find hope and help me, no longer do, and I can't find anything to get any Hope back. I even had one my best friends visit me (I hadn't seen her in almost a year), and thought that would lift me up. I really enjoyed her visit but I'm still in my dark lonely place. I hope you can find something that helps bring you joy! Hugs!
I'm late responding to this, but neither do I. I thought I finally had one but they recently just left me. There's nothing to enjoy on my own
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