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Shrek

Shrek

It's all ogre
Jul 10, 2021
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I am looking for life advice. I have had suicidal depression since age 8. I have ADD and trouble focusing and remembering(unmedicated). Trouble motivating for something i do not want to do. I dont have a degree other than a trade certificate. I want to become financially independent. I hate the government, and could not care less about the social contract. I am an right wing hippie anarchist.

Should i:
1. Just leech off the state, try to get disability pay no taxes, grow 🍄🍁 to get extra income. Chill and live alone trying to cope. Wait for artificial superintelligence/ UBI
2. Get medicated, get fit, get a job/go to school, build skills, start a buisness and struggle to become free legally
3. Ctb
4. A hybrid

1looks pretty comfy
2 has a high chance of failure. (I need to learn how to deal with failure)

Also, i am on antipsychotics that tank my libido, so i can't be bothered with women, and modern dating is broken. Would it be wise/beneficial to get in a relationship in the future? Looking to get a vasectomy soon either way.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
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I am looking for life advice. I have had suicidal depression since age 8. I have ADD and trouble focusing and remembering(unmedicated). Trouble motivating for something i do not want to do. I dont have a degree other than a trade certificate. I want to become financially independent. I hate the government, and could not care less about the social contract. I am an right wing hippie anarchist.

Should i:
1. Just leech off the state, try to get disability pay no taxes, grow 🍄🍁 to get extra income. Chill and live alone trying to cope. Wait for artificial superintelligence/ UBI
2. Get medicated, get fit, get a job/go to school, build skills, start a buisness and struggle to become free legally
3. Ctb
4. A hybrid

1looks pretty comfy
2 has a high chance of failure. (I need to learn how to deal with failure)
I don't have much information to go on, but 2 sounds like the best one here, imo.

Maybe it would be easier for you if you separated these different issues. Source of income one thing, long-term financial planning another thing, handling ADD another thing, your political views another thing, etc. Also, if you feel low on mental resources, lumping together fitness + medication + vocation + skills + business + financial freedom sounds like a big chunk. Separating things on paper/digitally may aid your clarity, divide and conquer.

Also, i am on antipsychotics that tank my libido, so i can't be bothered with women, and modern dating is broken. Would it be wise/beneficial to get in a relationship in the future? Looking to get a vasectomy soon either way.
I think it's individual how someone reacts to presence or absence of relationships in general; and of course the specific relationship in question. If you think you'd benefit from whatever relationship you'd want to have, and find someone compatible, it makes sense to try it, I think.
 
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whatishope

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May 29, 2025
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Option is 2 is the best option, it is very risky to rely on the state for anything. Also, you say option 2 has a high chance of failure while you defined option two as including: "struggle to become free legally". I don't think there is a way to fail struggling. There is also almost no way to fail getting fit (any movement is progress towards the goal).
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
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I agree with @whatishope as far as depending on a state/federal government for one's lively hood is too risky and prone to failure in more ways than one.

I live in the U.S. and the current federal government is slashing welfare and leaving folks without much at all.

Yes, there is the chance of failure in option 2 BUT life in itself is a risk from day one and at least you would be in control and NOT the government and/or someone else who looks at a welfare list as a number and NOT a human.

I wish and hope the very best for you and lots of caring and loving thoughts to you,

Walter
 
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