Venting Loneliness.

[s1mplem3]

I've been alone all my life, no friends or family. Now looking for a partner in here and I can't find anyone. People just ghost most of the time or not interested. I thought if I never had anyone in my life then at least I can find someone to be with me in my last moment, but I I'm too naive if I think it's possible. Last time I failed to CTB cause I was scared to do it alone, this month I'll try again. Probably I have to die alone, this is my path and I don't deserve to have anyone in my life.

 

[PrettyMoose]

"Why doesn't anyone believe
In loneliness
Stand up and everyone will see
Your holiness

They say if you look hard
You'll find your way back home
Born without a friend
And bound to die alone"
Soundgarden - Zero Chance

At least here we can all be alone together.

 

[taylor321]

heyyy, its like ur my suicide twin cause i relate to exactly what ur saying. And to respond to what u said "I dont deserve to have anyone in my life".. i 100% understand this feeling. I have the same thoughts all the time, i just lost my online friend to suicide. My online friend took a plane before the whole quarantine thing happened and well.. to make a long story short im alone now. I've been heartbroken for weeks now cause i know that should've been me. I know i shouldnt still be here, and i dont want to be. I wanted to go with someone and i made that so obvious but thats not how things turned out. I was so excited for what felt like the first time in my life, I even had this whole dream/fantasy of how things would turn out. Now im back to where i started. Im crying a lot. Then feeling empty. Then crying a lot again. Constantly feeling sick to my stomach all the time. I wish i was braver and more courageous, I wish i was a better friend

 

[Jumper Geo]

I've been alone all my life, no friends or family. Now looking for a partner in here and I can't find anyone. People just ghost most of the time or not interested. I thought if I never had anyone in my life then at least I can find someone to be with me in my last moment, but I I'm too naive if I think it's possible. Last time I failed to CTB cause I was scared to do it alone, this month I'll try again. Probably I have to die alone, this is my path and I don't deserve to have anyone in my life.

Sorry you feel alone it's a terrible feeling with no one to talk to I know a lot of people get pets to keep them company and you have us on SS to talk to. I hope things improve.