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systratiotes

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Jul 25, 2025
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As someone new, I'm now trying to cope with the fact that it's nearly impossible to get Nembutal, so please forgive that I'm still clinging to hopes.

Trips to Peru or other faraway places isn't an option for me because of financial constraints. Yet, as far as I know, it's used in my country (located in Eastern Europe) too by vets, and I wondered how local channels could be explored.

Unfortunately, I never had a pet, so I don't have a trusted vet. However, there's a plenty of them plus a vet uni here, so I just wonder if there's anyone who at least heard of succesful ways of establishing contacts with people who can access Nembutal for professional reasons. If yes, please tell, and I beg you to be specific about how it was done. Any minuscule information or advice is appreciated. Please note that I'm very much aware that anyone involved in such a thing would face very serious charges.

Also, what I read about the 2005 "Peanut Project" in the latest (2025 January) Peaceful Pill eHandbook (https://bunkr.media/f/oYjGxZpe48cWo) made me want to believe that someone with a decent knowledge of Chemistry and lab accessories could technically synthesize Nembutal. I only know, however, what little is shared about them in the "Essentials" edition (there's a link to a video about the project, but I can't access it, even with an account: https://bit.ly/peanutproject). This question was raised here before (https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ppeh-videos.199023/) but there were no answers to it.
 
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Vets are not stupid, they are unlikely to be tricked into a sob story or risk their carrier. Alsp that would be incredibly unfsir towards them. I want to die but am also very empathetic.

As much as I wish this was avialable everywhere, I find it insane that you can buy it nearly OTC in some places.
 
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systratiotes

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Jul 25, 2025
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Vets are not stupid, they are unlikely to be tricked into a sob story or risk their carrier. Alsp that would be incredibly unfsir towards them. I want to die but am also very empathetic.

As much as I wish this was avialable everywhere, I find it insane that you can buy it nearly OTC in some places.

Thank you, I see your point, and I want to emphasize that despite wanting to die, I haven't lost my moral compass. I don't want anyone to get into trouble because of my decision.
 
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rozbitka

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Sep 4, 2025
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As much as I wish this was avialable everywhere, I find it insane that you can buy it nearly OTC in some places.
In what places?
 
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MyShadow

MyShadow

Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
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20 years ago, Mexico was a hotspot for acquiring Nembutal but a story written in the San Diego Reader story titled "Suicide Tourism" exposed that source. I've heard about Latin and South American sources but I don't have any information on that.

As far as I am concerned, it's a unicorn in our world.
 
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wishingonstars

Student
Aug 6, 2025
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Also, what I read about the 2005 "Peanut Project" in the latest (2025 January) Peaceful Pill eHandbook (https://bunkr.media/f/oYjGxZpe48cWo) made me want to believe that someone with a decent knowledge of Chemistry and lab accessories could technically synthesize Nembutal. I only know, however, what little is shared about them in the "Essentials" edition (there's a link to a video about the project, but I can't access it, even with an account: https://bit.ly/peanutproject). This question was raised here before (https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ppeh-videos.199023/) but there were no answers to it.
I am very curious about how hard it would be to synthesize
 
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urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
167
Thank you, I see your point, and I want to emphasize that despite wanting to die, I haven't lost my moral compass. I don't want anyone to get into trouble because of my decision.
Exactly, I don't either but there are those out there selling it. I wouldn't do anything to put them in further risk. I don't want trouble for anyone. I just want a legit source because they are out there.
 
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iveseenfootage

it’s almost dry
Nov 30, 2025
112
Exactly, I don't either but there are those out there selling it. I wouldn't do anything to put them in further risk. I don't want trouble for anyone. I just want a legit source because they are out there.
You will be hard pressed to find one online, too many scammers. Gotta get lucky with some insanely corrupt vet or venture down to South America I guess
 
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gardenhouse

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Mar 26, 2026
260
As someone new, I'm now trying to cope with the fact that it's nearly impossible to get Nembutal, so please forgive that I'm still clinging to hopes.

Trips to Peru or other faraway places isn't an option for me because of financial constraints. Yet, as far as I know, it's used in my country (located in Eastern Europe) too by vets, and I wondered how local channels could be explored.

Unfortunately, I never had a pet, so I don't have a trusted vet. However, there's a plenty of them plus a vet uni here, so I just wonder if there's anyone who at least heard of succesful ways of establishing contacts with people who can access Nembutal for professional reasons. If yes, please tell, and I beg you to be specific about how it was done. Any minuscule information or advice is appreciated. Please note that I'm very much aware that anyone involved in such a thing would face very serious charges.

Also, what I read about the 2005 "Peanut Project" in the latest (2025 January) Peaceful Pill eHandbook (https://bunkr.media/f/oYjGxZpe48cWo) made me want to believe that someone with a decent knowledge of Chemistry and lab accessories could technically synthesize Nembutal. I only know, however, what little is shared about them in the "Essentials" edition (there's a link to a video about the project, but I can't access it, even with an account: https://bit.ly/peanutproject). This question was raised here before (https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ppeh-videos.199023/) but there were no answers to it.
I have a pet but how would I convince a vet to give me a nembutal lol? As usually they are the one who administer it themselves. I read somewhere that a group of old folks in Australia successfully made nembutal at home in their kitchen with pressure cooker but still the ingredients are very hard to get since most of the ingredients are lethal, even if you wanna get it from suppliers, you need certain kind of a license.
 
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U. A.

"Ultra Based" gigashad
Aug 8, 2022
2,600
The Peanut Project approach is moot for all but the richest among us (who'd not be clamouring for relief on a site like this) as part of said project was fundraising for massive amounts of money to have their results tested for purity either via independent lab, or by rented equipment (can't recall which, but it's in their old newsletters). iirc this was tens of thousands of dollars–in the market of a decade or so ago. Amp that cost up to match today's economy.
 
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doomerguy88

Student
Aug 13, 2025
152
You will be hard pressed to find one online, too many scammers. Gotta get lucky with some insanely corrupt vet or venture down to South America I guess
There's so much corruption and bad people in the world yet there isn't one doctor or vet who is willing to help people CTB. Like why hasn't their been another jack Kevorkian.
 
rainatthebusstop

rainatthebusstop

feel free to kill me
Aug 20, 2025
219
There's so much corruption and bad people in the world yet there isn't one doctor or vet who is willing to help people CTB. Like why hasn't their been another jack Kevorkian.
Cowardice and a general lack of people who are sympathetic to the idea of suicide
 
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doomerguy88

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Aug 13, 2025
152
Cowardice and a general lack of people who are sympathetic to the idea of suicide
Yeah it just sucks because you hear of doctors doing all sorts of other shady stuff but not one is willing to help people die who want it.
 
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rainatthebusstop

feel free to kill me
Aug 20, 2025
219
Yeah it just sucks because you hear of doctors doing all sorts of other shady stuff but not one is willing to help people die who want it.
Nurses as well. So many angels of death (fun game: look up how many have been found out in your country) but they only ever target the terminally in the ICU.
I suppose it doesn't give them the power trip they look for when serial killing or whatever but alas
 
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doomerguy88

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Aug 13, 2025
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Nurses as well. So many angels of death (fun game: look up how many have been found out in your country) but they only ever target the terminally in the ICU.
I suppose it doesn't give them the power trip they look for when serial killing or whatever but alas
Thanks I will check it out. yeah I don't necessarily mean serial killers just doctors /nurses who are willing to break the law to help people CTB for those who want it. Or a vet who is willing to give N to people. It's like people don't mind risking life sentence in jail to do all sorts of bad stuff but not one who is willing to risk it to help people who want it
 
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gardenhouse

Experienced
Mar 26, 2026
260
As someone new, I'm now trying to cope with the fact that it's nearly impossible to get Nembutal, so please forgive that I'm still clinging to hopes.

Trips to Peru or other faraway places isn't an option for me because of financial constraints. Yet, as far as I know, it's used in my country (located in Eastern Europe) too by vets, and I wondered how local channels could be explored.

Unfortunately, I never had a pet, so I don't have a trusted vet. However, there's a plenty of them plus a vet uni here, so I just wonder if there's anyone who at least heard of succesful ways of establishing contacts with people who can access Nembutal for professional reasons. If yes, please tell, and I beg you to be specific about how it was done. Any minuscule information or advice is appreciated. Please note that I'm very much aware that anyone involved in such a thing would face very serious charges.

Also, what I read about the 2005 "Peanut Project" in the latest (2025 January) Peaceful Pill eHandbook (https://bunkr.media/f/oYjGxZpe48cWo) made me want to believe that someone with a decent knowledge of Chemistry and lab accessories could technically synthesize Nembutal. I only know, however, what little is shared about them in the "Essentials" edition (there's a link to a video about the project, but I can't access it, even with an account: https://bit.ly/peanutproject). This question was raised here before (https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ppeh-videos.199023/) but there were no answers to it.
I have a pet and know a vet, but i have no idea how to make up a story to get nembutal out off their hands, as they're usually the one who administers it.

The video is not open for public though, i've signed up for exit international forum using my partner id who is 50+, hopefully i'll gain access on how to open the video, but in my understanding even if it was possible to be synthesized in your kitchen, all the required sodium is not easy to get or heavily regulated .
 
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VegasLyra

Member
Jan 16, 2021
99
Okay I might regret this but here goes nothing. There's a community on Reddit dedicated to collecting odd/unique medicine bottles, with Nembutal being one of them. I'm not going to give you their names, but if you just search "Nembutal" on Reddit and sort by new, you'll almost certainly find these communities.

Most of the Nembutal from there is decades old, but believe it or not it should be still good to CTB with. Now the problem is how do you get access to what they have? Robbery is off the table. Your best shot is to DM someone that has N and ask them how much they'd sell it to you for, and go from there.

BUT. THIS IS IMPORTANT. For the love of God don't give the slightest hint that you're after N for CTB. Pretend you're an antique bottle collector or something. Personally this isn't an option for me as I don't live in the US, but I'm sharing this info in hopes that someone will be able to finesse a Nembutal bottle and successfully CTB. Hope for the best!
 
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gardenhouse

Experienced
Mar 26, 2026
260
So easy to search online, so hard to get legally. If i had known I would come to this point in my life to wanna CBT, I would have studied to become a vet ;-;;-;


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VegasLyra

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Jan 16, 2021
99
So easy to search online, so hard to get legally. If i had known I would come to this point in my life to wanna CBT, I would have studied to become a vet ;-;;-;


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LMAO I've actually thought about this. I plan on CTB in the coming months by hanging but if, for whatever reason, I decide against it I'm gonna study to become a vet. Not necessarily just to get access to nembutal, but it sure would be a great side effect
 
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knowledgeseeking

Specialist
Apr 5, 2025
308
I was married to a vet and can confirm they will not risk the license by giving you euthanasia drugs.
 
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gardenhouse

Experienced
Mar 26, 2026
260
LMAO I've actually thought about this. I plan on CTB in the coming months by hanging but if, for whatever reason, I decide against it I'm gonna study to become a vet. Not necessarily just to get access to nembutal, but it sure would be a great side effect
But that would take years!!!
I was married to a vet and can confirm they will not risk the license by giving you euthanasia drugs.
And if you steal it, it would be the end of a relationship, wouldn't it!
 
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