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Darkover

Darkover

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Jul 29, 2021
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i spent 12 years( age 18 to 30) of my life learning how electronics work and how to program computers i have written over 100,000 lines of code
in the last 2 years i learned how to hack massive online multiplayer games written trading bot auto lot bots spam bots auto level up bots
then in 2016 July i got a brain injury worked so hard and got nothing to show for it except for 10,000£ selling in game items from my bots
i learned a lot and had a chance to create something a lot of people played i did get over 100,000 downloads for my bots but they where given away freely
now i am trapped in a defective machine and dependent on anti psychotics to just not be bed bound everyday is a living nightmare living in a constant state of discomfort from the brain injury my life is over and has been for nearly 9 years now

now this place is fucking terrible and horrible to be alive in this world is so awful
this world is depressing as shit i got to be free from this awful shit machine i inherited from my parents
to never exist would always be better than being alive here, why even bring us alive you obviously had nothing to offer in the first place,
there nothing here for me, nothing ever did care for me here, enslaved inside this awful shit this is a crazy place to be alive, insane hellhole
to live existing always wanting but never receiving, worked so hard but got nothing for it, easily broken impossible to repair,
what i learn from life is that it just leads to nowhere but disappointment always better to never exist at all,
a extremely oppressive and repressive environment, never again would i ever want to be enslaved in this awful shit in this shit hole and hellhole
 
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