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niki wonoto

Experienced
Oct 10, 2019
245
All the things that I've ever wanted, dreamed of, somehow they're all just crushed & destroyed by reality. All the doors are closing. It all narrowed down to one inevitable conclusion: I should stop existing in this shitty existence. I wish it could be the other way around. But, reality is cruel. It's depressing.
 
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deadbagel

deadbagel

o7
Mar 26, 2026
4
I understand how you feel
 
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DeadManLiving

DeadManLiving

Ticketholder
Sep 9, 2022
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Yeah it's crushing
 
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danielplainview

Member
Mar 22, 2026
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I feel the same
 
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Topaz111

Topaz111

I can feel this body in revolt
Mar 9, 2026
186
Same.. there are things in this world I want to experience, things I wish I could do, but the illnesses have taken it all away.. I have to leave before it gets even worse
 
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Gabbi_Station

Student
Jul 30, 2024
107
It's sad how much we warp ourselves into trying to be what the world expects; I constantly think about who I would have been without the pressures of housing, work, ect… pushing me to be something I am not.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,023
It truly is so cruel and dreadful how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it sounds like you've suffered a lot, I hope you find the relief you search for.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,650
Same here.

I tried.

I wasn't good enough.

Not even close.
 
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