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dontletthembribeyou

dontletthembribeyou

autistic girlfailure
Mar 4, 2025
134
Looking at old pictures of myself I'm starting to realize just how much I legitimately never stood a chance. I had beady sunken eyes, jowls, laugh lines, and a nose hump with a bulbous tip consistently from the time I was a literal toddler and all of that has only gotten worse as I got older.

It's almost comical to me how confused my parents were that I had literally 0 friends all throughout school, how I was so severely depressed and suicidal at such a young age despite having such a privileged upbringing. But they refused to acknowledge it, I guess because it would hurt my feelings or whatever- as if my feelings weren't already hurt from being treated like shit by literally everyone around me due to my looks. Given that, anyone honest have predicted that my years of intense therapy and trying basically every antidepressant drug on the market would all amount to nothing.

I can't accept that this is my life - condemned to work a dead end minimum wage job until I die, despite being reasonably intelligent and college educated (though, for the record, I don't think anyone deserves this kind of life even if they are dumb and/or uneducated). No homeownership, no real social life, no family, nothing but abuse and exploitation that will only get worse as I get older and uglier and capitalism gets more dystopian. Not to mention my chronic pain that's spreading and getting more and more unbearable by the day that I can't get any doctors to give a shit about just because they see my fucked up face and assume I'm a drug addict trying to get prescribed opiates despite the fact that I barely even drink or smoke weed anymore. Even when I pass that hurdle the solutions they offer me are all wildly out of my price range.

Given all my symptoms I wouldn't be surprised if i had some kind of genetic disorder but I can't be bothered to look into it because it's not like I can (or ever could) do anything about it. I genuinely believe I'm just bad stock and should have been tossed out either before or immediately after being born. But the system needs people like me so they can abuse, exploit, and squeeze every last drop of profit out of before letting us die early with no one to grieve us.

And if you are attractive and you're about to reply to lecture me about how your life is hard too and how exhausting it is to have everyone like you more than you like them or whatever kindly shove it. You know what you're doing and you know that if you had to swap bodies with me for a day you'd be hanging from the ceiling by dinnertime. You know that being ugly doesn't protect me from being sexually harassed or raped or abused or anything - it just prevented anyone from believing me or giving a shit when those things did happen to me
 
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Codename_Joryu

Codename_Joryu

Student
Dec 15, 2023
111
That's pretty much how life is when you are ugly. People treat you like a subhuman, refuse to be around you and bully you to the point of suicide. I've seen it happen many times and it's just disgusting to me. It's fucking repulsive how much society takes looks into consideration when it shouldn't matter in the slightest. You didn't choose this, you were born this way and you should never have been judged for it.

I'm really sorry you have to go through this, I just hope you will find someone who'll actually appreciate you for who you really are and love you unconditionally.
 
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ropemaxxingorsmth

ropemaxxingorsmth

Member
Feb 9, 2026
11
I've been in the same boat for my entire life and I don't have any positive childhood memories other than playing on my 360 alone in my room because of it and its only been downhill since, I hope that you will find a way to be happy anyway.
 
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Leyna

Leyna

I only paint in red now
Sep 28, 2024
102
due to genetics i've had acne my entire life and now i have a bunch of acne scars i can never be rid of. on top of that i'm fat and i always will be. no real life friends, barely get looked at in the streets. people like us are destined to be at the bottom rung
 
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ireallywasnttogopls

ireallywasnttogopls

Member
Oct 8, 2023
56
no one can escape the blackpill
 
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dearreader

dearreader

Persona Non Grata
Feb 11, 2026
4
It's deeply unfortunate. That is, that women's entire existence seems to be hinged on the standards and actions of men. Even if you are fortunate-looking, there's a ticking clock looming, waiting for the moment in which you turn 40—or somewhere in that ballpark—and society completely devalues you. Or maybe it's the knowledge that misogyny is baked so deeply into our brains (whether intentional or not...I like to think most people aren't) that once you notice it, regardless of appearance, status, etc... you literally can't stop.

I am jealous of men's ability to just Be. If I had the choice to be born as a male, I probably wouldn't take it, but I wish that as a girl I could just exist in a vacuum. True independence doesn't exist when the conversation revolves around whether or not you should have bodily autonomy, or the fear of walking alone at night. Even if that predatory behavior is one day eradicated, we live knowing that it was simply men's choice to stop, and not our ability (or lack thereof) to fight back.
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,248
I honestly see few woman who are not old that I would consider ugly. Plain or average maybe. And I've bee attracted to some of them. I'm getting up in years, but but I've always considered myself as an average looking man And few women have seem to find me attractive
 
Captive_Mind515

Captive_Mind515

King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
Jul 18, 2023
648
Unpopular opinion: Humane eugenics would make society better overall.
 
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dontletthembribeyou

dontletthembribeyou

autistic girlfailure
Mar 4, 2025
134
Unpopular opinion: Humane eugenics would make society better overall.
I don't know about that - I know I said I should have been "tossed out" but I was super emotional at the time, lol.
The problem with eugenics is, if we get rid of the "less thans" of today, inevitably another class of "less thans" would develop from the "lowest ranking" of everyone left behind because the root cause of all this inequality would remain unaddressed. There's also the issue of who gets to decide who gets taken out of the gene pool.

I think it would make more sense to create a society where people could build careers based solely on merit instead of everything being a social climbing power game. Realistically, though, we just need to be developing better treatment for visible differences (what most people call "ugliness" so that those born with them have a better shot at leading normal lives
 
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Captive_Mind515

King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
Jul 18, 2023
648
I don't know about that - I know I said I should have been "tossed out" but I was super emotional at the time, lol.
The problem with eugenics is, if we get rid of the "less thans" of today, inevitably another class of "less thans" would develop from the "lowest ranking" of everyone left behind because the root cause of all this inequality would remain unaddressed. There's also the issue of who gets to decide who gets taken out of the gene pool.

I think it would make more sense to create a society where people could build careers based solely on merit instead of everything being a social climbing power game. Realistically, though, we just need to be developing better treatment for visible differences (what most people call "ugliness" so that those born with them have a better shot at leading normal lives

Some places such as Sweden were still practicing eugenics up until relatively recently. Interestingly, Sweden is regularly ranked in the top 5 of the world happiness index. And they are also often ranked among the most attractive nationalities in the world as well...
 

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