Snake of Eden
“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
- Jun 22, 2021
- 2,472
Really sick of life, anhedonia and lack of things that are interesting or pleasurable. Anyone can relate?
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Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,622
I hate hearing about how boring it is tbh. I always get the impression the persons young and has everything
Snake of Eden
“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
- Jun 22, 2021
- 2,472
I am a man-child and no i dont have anything. Not even close to.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 47,543
Yes, I have no interest in living. I am bored all the time. The days are very long. I have never wanted to be alive and I never will. Life is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it. All we are doing is waiting around for death. I just want non existence. It frustrates me that I was forced to exist and I have to endure this life.
Caspers
Lost
- Jun 23, 2020
- 426
I have anhedonia too due to a brain injury along with the wrong drugs and life is just so plain. I have no motivation, it's hard. And all my hobbies feel like a chore. I would take another pill for it but I know it would just make things worse.
WhiteRabbit
I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
- Feb 12, 2019
- 1,796
When I was young and still living at home, I could relate to this. It seems like ever since I've been out on my own anxiety has been the reigning negative emotion in my life.
Bootleg Astolfo
Glorious Bean Plushie
- Oct 12, 2020
- 1,101
Anhedonia: Because fuck you, no escapism allowed, ONLY SUFFFFFEEEERRRR. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
chocolatebar
Paragon
- Jul 11, 2021
- 973
Crazy4u
Enlightened
- Sep 29, 2021
- 1,318
I'm good with boring tbh. for me, life is annoying, life sucks, life makes me sick ,....etcI'd feel like I was appropriating a struggle that wasn't mine if I said I related to anhedonia. But if anhedonia was on a spectrum I would be closer to the no fun end of things.
I get some pleasure from food, runescape, and some music. I still enjoy movies and anime when I'm able to work up the motivation to watch them. I struggle with boredom and disinterest in everything. I have a difficult time when people try to have conversations with me, it's very boring.
The last time I derived 0 joy and felt like a numb husk was when I was still in an abusive relationship. I would lay on the bed and stare at the wall for many hours.
ClownMe
Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
- Apr 7, 2021
- 20,560
Yep, life has lost all meaning for me and I don't enjoy doing anything anymore.
WrongPlaceWrongTime
Better never to have been
- Jul 4, 2021
- 694
I might be fine with life being boring, if it wasn't also stressful.
8AEM
Member
- Jan 5, 2022
- 87
lostautist
wandering
- Jan 12, 2022
- 224
Due to an injury I haven't been able to do any of the activities I would normally do for nearly a year.
I'm normally fine with boring, but not constant and extreme anxiety, hopelessness and physical pain.Last edited:
I'm in the same position. Its taken my cognitive abilities, memory and sense of humour too. I thrived on learning, loved gaming, was an artist and lived happily. Now I'm stuck on the sofa. Can't sleep, eat or even play video games which I was once so fond of. It's broken my heart. I spent about a year mourning myself. I'm not sure if that's passed but I know that I'm forgetting who I was and I'm scared to look through my stuff as a reminder incase I desensitise myself to it and create new memories overwriting them. If I'm going to get better I need those memories to relink me to the past. If I'm not going to get better I need those memories as fuel to remind me of just how much I've lost and overcome SI when the time is right. So yeah, I feel your pain!
I carried a couple of bags of groceries up the staira earlier. Someone dropped them by for me. I felt like my heart was going to give in. It was poinding like crazy. I was doing shopping for the sheilding people in my neighbourhood a year ago and all on foot. Can't believe how fast your health can decline.Last edited:
lostautist
wandering
- Jan 12, 2022
- 224
That's quite a reflection of myself... thriving on self-education, gaming and was quite content before everything happened. Now my health is deteriorating and I'm completely lost and the end of the tunnel is only getting darker.
I hope you make it through this, I'm trying to be hopeful but the sinking feeling in my chest hasn't subsided in over a month along with the anxiety, and add the pain and uncertainty to that and that's where I am. I want to continue but I don't see a path past this so I'm prepared. I;m still trying, so there's that.
Justsogone
An unlived life
- Dec 14, 2021
- 100
freedompass
Warlock
- Jan 27, 2021
- 769
Yes I can relate, I've got rather severe Bipolar 1 and decades of episodes have damaged my cognitive abilities. Used to be an avid reader and keep a blog about my life. Now all I do is text, reading a book seems like a chore instead of a pleasure. Boredom is more of a bugbear for me than loneliness is. No job, living alone, only really going out for exercise. Gonna turn 60 this year I'm lucky I haven't got any severe physical health problems…yet. But I've had low energy levels for many years.
