Life Has Become Boring

[Celerity]

While I'm not actively upset like I was, life just seems like a slog lately. I sit bored at work on slow days and think to myself that it's not much different at home. Nothing appeals. Media has a quality of sameness to it no matter the genre. Food is just alright. Booze never hits; I just feel sedated when I drink. People aren't interesting or even attractive.

It's like that NIN song, "Everyday Is Exactly the Same":

I believe I can see the future
'Cause I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
Then again, that might have been a dream
I think I used to have a voice
Now I never make a sound
And I just do what I've been told
I really don't want them to come around, oh no
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same
I can feel their eyes are watching
In case I lose myself again
Sometimes I think I'm happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend
I can't remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same
I'm writing on a little piece of paper
I'm hoping someday I might find
Well I'll hide it behind something
They wont look behind
I am still inside here
A little bit comes bleeding through
I wish this could've been any other way
But I just don't know, I don't know
What else I can do
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same

 

[Julgran]

While I'm not actively upset like I was, life just seems like a slog lately. I sit bored at work on slow days and think to myself that it's not much different at home. Nothing appeals. Media has a quality of sameness to it no matter the genre. Food is just alright. Booze never hits; I just feel sedated when I drink. People aren't interesting or even attractive.

It's like that NIN song, "Everyday Is Exactly the Same":

I believe I can see the future
'Cause I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
Then again, that might have been a dream
I think I used to have a voice
Now I never make a sound
And I just do what I've been told
I really don't want them to come around, oh no
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same
I can feel their eyes are watching
In case I lose myself again
Sometimes I think I'm happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend
I can't remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same
I'm writing on a little piece of paper
I'm hoping someday I might find
Well I'll hide it behind something
They wont look behind
I am still inside here
A little bit comes bleeding through
I wish this could've been any other way
But I just don't know, I don't know
What else I can do
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same

I feel the same, but I'm not sure what to do about it - or if it's even worth doing anything about it.

 

[NoLightRemains]

This is how I feel most days. On bad days, talking with people is a chore, but on my good days, I can feel enjoyment from talking to people. I find very few people interesting, most I just don't want to hear anything from.

 

[timf]

Some people work hard just to get to the point of being bored. Sadly some assuage boredom with indulgences the consequence of which are problems that need to be solved in order to work their way back to boredom again.

Breaking past boredom often requires a shift in focus from self to others. For most people, the demands of parenthood propel them into the world of thinking of others. Some undertake it through volunteer work.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

After the anguish of being actively suicidal - feeling unloved, worthless, useless, ugly, repulsive and unable to function - I'll happily take some boredom, thank you very much.