Discussion LGBT of SaSu - Anyone Else Late to Self-Acceptance?

[Celerity]

For most of my adult life, I believed myself to be bisexual. That my earliest crushes were of other girls and that the idea of dating men filled me with dread were inconvenient thoughts I rationalized away.

It wasn't until I fell in love with another woman that I was forced to face facts. With how long it took me to get here (I'm 33), I would have expected this realization to be rather painful. Instead, even though she abandoned me, I felt a huge weight lift from my shoulders when I finally accepted the truth about my sexuality.

I wonder now how my life would have turned out if I hadn't been raised in a conservative household in a deeply homophobic corner of the country.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

yes, i knew i was trans from a very young age, but only accepted it a few years ago.

 

[Celerity]

yes, i knew i was trans from a very young age, but only accepted it a few years ago.

What made you come to accept that you were trans?

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

What made you come to accept that you were trans?

my best friend who i met around that time, they are also transgender and hearing them talk about it made it harder for me to deny to myself because i knew i felt the exact same way. and also my room mate, who somehow picked up on it without me ever telling them, and defaulted to using the pronouns that are my preferred pronouns even though i had never told him or anyone else to, seeing that i could be accepted by someone and not have it be treated as a big deal helped.

 

[iguazo falls]

idk if im even at self acceptance. like i accept it but i wish it never happened. its pride month and people are having fun and it sounds childish but i feel left behind because i feel its only brought me trouble. i think the only good things is i enjoy well written pieces of work i wouldn't have found if not looking for whatever i'm into or represents me, i wasn't born into a hostile country legislation wise, and my partner accepts me but idk i wish i was just born normal. being trans to me just feels like a nightmare that i'm waiting to be over and i don't fit in anywhere. i also knew i was trans when i was a kid but just went thru stuff that made me repress hard and literally study how to be a woman. i want to be more ok but i feel like i'm in a constant identity crisis and not really about what gender i am but more like well if i'm a dude where is my place in society in relation to everyone else? how do i find that place if nobody sees me as male yet?

 

[Forveleth]

I started telling my parents I wish I had been born a boy at age 6, yet it took me over 30 years to put two and two together. Also realized at the same time I am pan/poly. I always thought I was just... kinky? I guess. I liked to fantasize about "weird sex" but I never questioned why or what that could mean.

When I figured it out at 38, I almost felt stupid. But, like you, I wonder how different my life would have been had I not been raised in a Christian household.