Less than 2 weeks left if I don’t postpone

[Idontmatter]

If I don't postpone again I have less than 2 weeks left. I'm planning on leaving September 10th. I've got everything just about done. Just have to finish writing passwords down so my family can pay bills after I'm gone. I'm getting more and more nervous, not about dying, but about failing. I'm using the sn method. I was trying to find hope for the future but all I can feel is dread. A constant dark cloud over me. I'm tired of delaying the inevitable. I'm just exhausted from the anxiety and sick of the depression. I honestly don't think it will be a surprise to my husband. I think he knows that this is eventually going to happen. I just hope everything goes as planned.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand having fear of failing ctb in general, but of course many people have succeeded with SN. I know that it's hard to carry on existing when you are so tired. I hope that things go the way that you want them to. Best wishes.

 

[Jrmull1993]

@Idontmatter Whatever path you go down, I hope you find your eternal peace.

I'm sure once you have all your final affairs in order you'll be feeling much better.

Your a few weeks ahead of my planned exit, I guess I'll be catching up to you soon.