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N-methylamphetamine

N-methylamphetamine

Experienced
Jul 6, 2022
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whats the least painful way to CTB, i dont want firearm since its too "bloody" and i want it to be painless
 
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Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
698
and i want N delivered to my door step. we both know it aint going to happen.

you been here long enough you should know how things go here
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
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No methods besides instant or near instant ones that are usually extremely hard to obtain are truly painless.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
49,107
I just want to cease existing painlessly as well, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just access a peaceful poison like Nembutal so finally I can be at peace from this terrible, torturous existence, to me that sounds like the most peaceful, I hope you find the peace you search for.
 
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N-methylamphetamine

N-methylamphetamine

Experienced
Jul 6, 2022
248
and i want N delivered to my door step. we both know it aint going to happen.

you been here long enough you should know how things go here
no need to be rude, i rarely go on the active-suicide part of this website
 
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Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
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sorry but i get annoyed when people just ask question without actually checking what is there already.
if you have read it you won't be having these questions.

its a self service and do your own investigations.
there is a whole section above being stickied with resources.
 
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LongJacks

Student
Feb 17, 2026
165
whats the least painful way to CTB, i dont want firearm since its too "bloody" and i want it to be painless
Nembutal but almost impossible to get unfortunately it's very rare from what I hear and like SN it could be tracked so be careful
 
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miyabi

miyabi

Miyabi loves you <3
Dec 20, 2024
111
I tried SN a few days ago. I used a lot lower dosage than recommended (wasn't the reason I survived) but from my experience it was painless and I didn't realise I was going unconscious. It would have been a very good death. No nausea or vomiting, just shortness of breath (didn't feel like I was unable to breathe), pounding heart and head, losing colour in vision. I absolutely would have been fine if I had died, because I went from thinking "I need to lie down because I can't walk properly" to waking up in hospital the next day. Would've died without realising what had happened.
whats the least painful way to CTB, i dont want firearm since its too "bloody" and i want it to be painless
 
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Exhausted546

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Dec 1, 2025
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I tried SN a few days ago. I used a lot lower dosage than recommended (wasn't the reason I survived) but from my experience it was painless and I didn't realise I was going unconscious. It would have been a very good death. No nausea or vomiting, just shortness of breath (didn't feel like I was unable to breathe), pounding heart and head, losing colour in vision. I absolutely would have been fine if I had died, because I went from thinking "I need to lie down because I can't walk properly" to waking up in hospital the next day. Would've died without realising what had happened.
I head it's hard to get in Canada quebec , at least they post I read specifically highlighted that the antiemetic medication is the hardest to come by
 
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miyabi

miyabi

Miyabi loves you <3
Dec 20, 2024
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I head it's hard to get in Canada quebec , at least they post I read specifically highlighted that the antiemetic medication is the hardest to come by
That's surprising, it was years ago so might be wrong but prettt sure I followed the forum advice of asking a GP for it due to nausea and was prescribed it without even having an appointment. Not in Canada though.
 
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dimlight

dimlight

it should not be this hard
Jun 29, 2026
28
the body's goal is to sustain us so unfortunately theres no true 'painless and quick' way to go. but we can always look for the least painful and quickest method. seems to me that SN is the likely answer and the method i am opting for
 
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