Land Mines

[Water-Lily]

My life is like a walking land mine
Every failure, betrayal, abuse, pain I experience reminds me that suicide is the best choice
Heart broken? Suicide
Mistake at work? Suicide
Someone gets mad at me? Suicide
I hurt someone? Suicide
Drop something? Suicide
Suicide is my default for everything
I know realistically not seeing disappointment as an opportunity for growth will hurt me
It will not allow me be to be resilient
But I am done fighting

 

[watereyes]

I relate.

 

[Water-Lily]

I relate.

I feel for you that you relate at all. It's an awful feeling. Going through life knowing that the littlest thing can destroy you or send you over the edge. And then when it doesn't, it feels worse because you have to deal with the thing that made you feel bad in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are in so much pain. I have also had enough of living and everything just seems to make me feel worse. Everything is very hopeless for me. I wish you the best.

 

[Water-Lily]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are in so much pain. I have also had enough of living and everything just seems to make me feel worse. Everything is very hopeless for me. I wish you the best.

Thanks hun. I appreciate it. I just wonder why so much suffering happens to people. Innocent people get trampled and then the horrible abusers that put us here just get to live a good life. I honestly hope that my best life will be a hell of a lot better than what I got here. This life was a mistake.